Brother. We all struggle with sin. Yesterday I couldnt sleep the whole night, because I was struggling with thoughts I didn't want that I tried to get out of my head. We all struggle. There is TWO kinds of people.
Those who are dead TO sin. Meaning they have become salves of righteousness. Meaning they are living by the Holy Spirit and are putting the misdeeds of the body away. Meaning, they HATE sin and DESIRE holiness, yet struggle. (Romans 6:1-3, Romans 6: 20-23, Romans 7: 6, Romans 8:1, Romans 8:9-11). Read those carefully. There are those who are dead IN sin. They live in sin and play Godly ( they can be praying, reading, attending churches) all outward love, but no living relationship with Christ and real concern for his Holiness.
Your problem is this. Take what I tell you to heart.
"In your struggle against sin, you have not yet resisted to the point of shedding your blood. 5 And you have
FORGOTTEN that word of encouragement that addresses you as sons: "My son, do not make light of the Lord's discipline, and do not lose heart when he rebukes you, 6 because the Lord disciplines those he loves, and he punishes everyone he accepts as a son." 7 Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as sons. For what son is not disciplined by his father? (Hebrews 12:4-17)
5 And beside this, giving all diligence, add to your faith virtue; and to virtue knowledge;
6 And to knowledge temperance; and to temperance patience; and to patience godliness;
7 And to godliness brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness charity.
8 For if these things be in you, and abound, they make you that ye shall neither be barren nor unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.
9 But he that lacketh these things is blind, and cannot see afar off, and hath
FORGOTTEN that he was purged from his old sins.
Do you see it yet? you said "I don't know if I'm going to heaven or not" and so on and so on. The problem is that when you struggle, you FORGET that you ahve been cleansed and you are a son of God. READ HEBREWS 10. "BY ONE SACRAFICE HE HAS PERFECTED FOREVER THOSE THAT ARE SANCTIFIED" and so on and so on. My brother your concern shows you desire holiness and you are a new creature. You ONLY need to BELIEVE harder, for Satan's number 1 technique is to let you think YOU ARE NOT FORGIVEN ALREADY.
THERE ARE 2 KINDS OF CHRISTIANS. 1) those who know they are forgiven and therefore grow in holiness, and those who tak this forgivneess and keep on sinning. That's why Paul says shall we sin that grace may abound. For beofre he says that, he said in romans 4:5-8
"However, to the man who does not work but trusts God who justifies the wicked, his faith is credited as righteousness. 6 David says the same thing when he speaks of the blessedness of the man to whom God credits righteousness apart from works: 7 "Blessed are they whose transgressions are forgiven, whose sins are covered. 8 Blessed is the man whose sin the Lord will never count against him.".
Satan will use everything to let you believe you're not forgiven. For this very reason, many think that total forgiveness will cause you to sin and that's because THAT'S WHAT THEY WILL DO, because they are dead
IN sin. But we have died
TO sin. Take heart, you will overcome. There are MANY scriptures that I can give you especially in John. Anyone who believes is no longer condemned and so on and so on. The bible Makes it clear.
14 For by one offering he hath perfected for ever them that are sanctified.
15 Whereof the Holy Ghost also is a witness to us: for after that he had said before,
16 This is the covenant that I will make with them after those days, saith the Lord, I will put my laws into their hearts, and in their minds will I write them;
17 And their sins and iniquities will I remember no more.
18 Now where remission of these is, there is no more offering for sin.
19 Having therefore, brethren, boldness to enter into the holiest by the blood of Jesus,
20 By a new and living way, which he hath consecrated for us, through the veil, that is to say, his flesh;
21 And having an high priest over the house of God;
22 Let us draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled from an evil conscience, and our bodies washed with pure water. (Hebrews 10: 14-22)....and so on. Brother you have been forgiven. The evidence is that you DIED TO SIN. Meaning as I wrote before and as paul mentions in Romans. You now DESIRE holiness and you're GROWING in faith. It's only TEMPORARY struggle and you will overcome.
Grace be with you
