scared that i'll give up

[jc9992]

see the title....

Last month was so great ,after months of prayer i was getting up everyday ready to go, id pray in the morning, during the day and at night ,sometimes id even read the Bible.Then id go to church every sunday.I felt so close to God and still do,OCD had never felt so far away.

but this morning i did some bad things that caused me to spike and i guess having a bad day is probably the real reason for me being like this ,but anyway im scared that ill run out of steam and eventually give up.Now thats the last thing i want to do,but OCD is so aggravating and like i said in my thread a couple months ago, i can never feel "safe" from the thoughts.

I know that i just need to stay close to God,ignore the thoughts,and avoid anything that might cause me to spike.Im just scared that ill throw in the towel and go back to struggling like i was 6 months ago.

I know im simply having a bad OCD day, but any advice would be appreciated.

 

[frank1234]

My encouraging thoughts for you is:
Even If you get to the point where you feel there is nothing else you can do and you are ready to throw in the towel, God is there waiting for you. Actually God has never left you and never will, so take comfort in the thought that The Lord is holding on to you, and It's not you that are holding on to The Lord. God be with you.

 

[ShyFlower]

The way I see it, having set backs is, unfortunately, a part of life, and while it can be very discouraging, please do not give up. You've been doing so well it seems like, don't let one bad spell get you down. It happens, but just remember you have been doing well, and you will continue to do well, despite a moment of relapse. Best of luck.

 

[OptimisticSmile]

listen to casting crowns praise you in this storm and east to west both songs are encouraging to anyone who is thinking of giving up

giving up is not entirly bad, that is if you are giving up your control to God and your understanding for his. He endured the cross, he can endure with you your longsuffering as well. He died for you and your your sin is nailed to that cross and your life is hid in Christ.

 

[jc9992]

i had bad night last night.After having a really good day i went to wednesday church for the first time.It was a great service but about the last 30-40 minutes or so i got a BAD OCD spike.I have such a bad habit of constantly canceling thoughts and i really dont know how to stop it.

 

[kaykay637]

i had bad night last night.After having a really good day i went to wednesday church for the first time.It was a great service but about the last 30-40 minutes or so i got a BAD OCD spike.I have such a bad habit of constantly canceling thoughts and i really dont know how to stop it.

Sorry you had a bad spike. Sometimes church does that, I think, because spiritual issues are being addressed there obviously. And I don't think the answer is to avoid church. FOR SURE!!!! Just an observation.

The thought cancelling thing can get to be a habit that takes awhile to overcome. The more you can really believe, however, that your thoughts REALLY do not have any spiritual significance (and I know that's tough with OCD!) the easier it is to just ignore them.

I know. I used to be there. Still have my own OCD issues, but thankfully, not this one which is extremely tormenting.