Saved but struggle with bitterness

[Cardiffgurl21]

I was saved a year ago after a horrendous eighteen months. Since then i have been so lucky with all the changes in my life my marriage was restored and i no longer suffer from anxiety attacks. My problem is I have been extremely bitter about the people who i feel kicked when i was down. I don't understand why I am still so bitter after feeling the love of Jesus in my life. I feel like I can forgive an action but the bitterness towards the person remains. I have prayed to God to soften my heart towards people, but nothing so far.

You may have read my other posts where i've mentioned feeling looked down on in church etc and a lot of it comes down to my difficulty in trusting people. No matter how much good i see in other christians I focus on all the bad i've already seen in the world, breaking these walls down is so hard. This all came to a head when I a family member I had a bad experience with came to our church. I have become really bitter and obsessed checking the internet for friends we have in common and pictures of her in home groups etc. I feel like a massive hypocrite i feel like walking away from God but deep down I know I could never do that. Have counselling coming up soon with a christian counseller I really hope it works, it's effecting family life. Thanks for reading God Bless you all.

 

[Criada]

It takes time, sweetie. Forgiving people isn't something that happens overnight.
Keep praying - pray for those who have wronged you, ask God to show you how he sees them... Eventually you will realise that the bitterness is gone.

Praying for you, sister.