sadness & guilt consuming me

[praying_hoping]

I just please ask for your prayers. I am grieving so terribly over the lost of a three year friendship and the news that my job of three years is being cut as of June 1st. I take two different antidepressants and I find I take Xanax and my husband's Vicodin just so that I don't have to "feel" anymore. Numbness is all I want to feel anymore. Been fighting this battle with clinical depression and anxiety on and off for over 30 years now. I am so beyond tired of this! Everytime it seems I am starting to feel like my old self again, another terrible event comes along and I'm knocked right back down to the pits of hell. I am so overwhelmed in my life right now as I've had a series of terrible events happen to me since last September. I don't want to feel hopeless about the future-but I am at a lost right now. thank you for listening. Lori

 

[goldenviolet]

Dear Father! i cry Abba! please bless this sister, your daughter. please lift these burdens from her shoulders. thank you for bringing her to us here on CF. Father let us be your hands and feet through Jesus to make her feel and know many blessings. let our fellowship honor you as we build her. Father you are loving and full of beautiful promises. i ask that you rain these lovely promises upon her heart and renew her with joy and contentment. in Jesus' name we petition and praise you. amen.

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

If you're battling with guilt it sounds you may have done something to break up the friendship? I'm just asking because I did something terrible to a very good friend and I felt so guilty I didn't speak to him for two months. When I finally got the courage to talk to him I discovered that he'd already forgiven me and was waiting for me to talk to him first. Maybe your friend will forgive you too, even though you might not think so. Maybe I'm not on the right track but whatever happened I hope there's a chance that your friendship will be restored.

 

[bfly]

I just please ask for your prayers. I am grieving so terribly over the lost of a three year friendship and the news that my job of three years is being cut as of June 1st. I take two different antidepressants and I find I take Xanax and my husband's Vicodin just so that I don't have to "feel" anymore. Numbness is all I want to feel anymore. Been fighting this battle with clinical depression and anxiety on and off for over 30 years now. I am so beyond tired of this! Everytime it seems I am starting to feel like my old self again, another terrible event comes along and I'm knocked right back down to the pits of hell. I am so overwhelmed in my life right now as I've had a series of terrible events happen to me since last September. I don't want to feel hopeless about the future-but I am at a lost right now. thank you for listening. Lori

Father, only you know the needs of this dear lady. I ask that you come and abide in her and give her hope where there seems to be no hope. Lord change her circumstances, break the bondage of guilt and let her dwell in peace. Fill her with joy and peace, give her a new mind filled with awareness and excitement about a new day, a new life, a new love for you. Let her become Jesus minded and be so filled with your love she is overcome with excitement of sharing your word and love with all who come in contact with her. In Jesus name I pray. amen