Sad and lonely, I know I'm not the only one, lol

[ArmourYellow]

Warning, I'm just gonna throw up here on the interent, sorry.

Thats pretty much it, just sad and lonely again. No good reason as usual either. No friends to hang out with and no prospective spouse are some instigators. Found this site like anyone else these days. Typed my situation into google with the qualifier that I'm a Christian so the search results would hopefully track in a good, healthy, and helpful direction. Just pouring my heart out on the internet (which feels stupid, but here it is anyways) and praying to God (which I do a lot, but try not to make it about me so often). Another post in here had come up as the search result. Guy had been in the military like me and had felt as if he was socially awkward after coming back like I've thought about myself a couple times. Made me decide to give this place a shot (If he could share his heart online with the world then I guess I can too, no matter how simple or complicated it is). Staying in the Reserves has helped. Got a good group of people I get to see once a month who I feel really care about each other and I care about them right back. Just hate being a downer and a drag on everyone else so I keep my sad feelings to myself and try to only share the good vibes (of which I do have a lot, for the most part I'm a happy guy and really shouldn't have any reasons to be sad). My parents know me best, I have very few if any secrets kept from them. Just typing on here about it all feels good. Now for an admission... I'm a closet Brony (I guess I qualify, wouldn't mind if I didn't though, lol), that is, someone who enjoys watching the My Little Pony Friendship is Magic animated television show for kids. Saw the new movie with my 8 year old sister yesterday. I enjoy other normal cartoons for all genders and ages as well. Mind you, I'm completely straight, and still can't figure out what a 30 year old heterosexual male like myself is doing enjoying a show originally intended for little girls. Anyway, only reason I brought it up is because I think it may have something to do with how I'm feeling this time. There were a few good emotional songs in it, one by the pop singer Sia (she is not a Christian herself (yet), but is cousins with Peter Furler), another by Lukas Nelson, and one by Emily Blunt, in addition to a couple others. I am a bit of an emotional guy (Usually keep that private, but do tell people ocassionally, just try not to show it) and maybe that is another reason I gravitate towards that show and the movie. All that probably isn't helping me either, though I've felt sad and lonely before My little pony, lol. So there it is, I feel much better, now, lol. I'm a Brony, shame on me. Still completely secure in my masculinity somehow, lol. Well, sorry for wasting your evening with all this, I hope you at the very least found it mildly entertaining. God bless, and have a wonderful night/day, wherever you are.

 

[SkyWriting]

Warning, I'm just gonna throw up here on the interent, sorry.

Thats pretty much it, just sad and lonely again. No good reason as usual either. No friends to hang out with and no prospective spouse are some instigators. Found this site like anyone else these days. Typed my situation into google with the qualifier that I'm a Christian so the search results would hopefully track in a good, healthy, and helpful direction. Just pouring my heart out on the internet (which feels stupid, but here it is anyways) and praying to God (which I do a lot, but try not to make it about me so often). Another post in here had come up as the search result. Guy had been in the military like me and had felt as if he was socially awkward after coming back like I've thought about myself a couple times. Made me decide to give this place a shot (If he could share his heart online with the world then I guess I can too, no matter how simple or complicated it is). Staying in the Reserves has helped. Got a good group of people I get to see once a month who I feel really care about each other and I care about them right back. Just hate being a downer and a drag on everyone else so I keep my sad feelings to myself and try to only share the good vibes (of which I do have a lot, for the most part I'm a happy guy and really shouldn't have any reasons to be sad). My parents know me best, I have very few if any secrets kept from them. Just typing on here about it all feels good. Now for an admission... I'm a closet Brony (I guess I qualify, wouldn't mind if I didn't though, lol), that is, someone who enjoys watching the My Little Pony Friendship is Magic show. Saw the new movie with my 8 year old sister yesterday. I enjoy other normal cartoons for all genders and ages as well. Mind you, I'm completely straight, and still can't figure out what a 30 year old heterosexual male like myself is doing enjoying a show originally intended for little girls. Anyway, only reason I brought it up is because I think it may have something to do with how I'm feeling this time. There were a few good emotional songs in it, one by the pop singer Sia, another by Lukas Nelson, and one by Emily Blunt, in addition to a couple others. I am a bit of an emotional guy (Usually keep that private, but do tell people ocassionally, just try not to show it) and maybe that is another reason I gravitate towards that show and the movie. All that probably isn't helping me either, though I've felt sad and lonely before My little pony, lol. So there it is, I feel much better, now, lol. I'm a Brony, shame on me. Still completely secure in my masculinity somehow, lol. Well, sorry for wasting your evening with all this, I hope you at the very least found it mildly entertaining. God bless, and have a wonderful night/day, wherever you are.

No good reason to be sad and lonely, You seem to be able to write well
and are open with your feelings. You could be famous in no time!

How much money can one Kindle book make? (1 year case study)

How to Successfully Self-Publish a Kindle eBook - Michael Hyatt

 

[Press On]

Warning, I'm just gonna throw up here on the interent, sorry.

Thats pretty much it, just sad and lonely again. No good reason as usual either. No friends to hang out with and no prospective spouse are some instigators. Found this site like anyone else these days. Typed my situation into google with the qualifier that I'm a Christian so the search results would hopefully track in a good, healthy, and helpful direction. Just pouring my heart out on the internet (which feels stupid, but here it is anyways) and praying to God (which I do a lot, but try not to make it about me so often). Another post in here had come up as the search result. Guy had been in the military like me and had felt as if he was socially awkward after coming back like I've thought about myself a couple times. Made me decide to give this place a shot (If he could share his heart online with the world then I guess I can too, no matter how simple or complicated it is). Staying in the Reserves has helped. Got a good group of people I get to see once a month who I feel really care about each other and I care about them right back. Just hate being a downer and a drag on everyone else so I keep my sad feelings to myself and try to only share the good vibes (of which I do have a lot, for the most part I'm a happy guy and really shouldn't have any reasons to be sad). My parents know me best, I have very few if any secrets kept from them. Just typing on here about it all feels good. Now for an admission... I'm a closet Brony (I guess I qualify, wouldn't mind if I didn't though, lol), that is, someone who enjoys watching the My Little Pony Friendship is Magic show. Saw the new movie with my 8 year old sister yesterday. I enjoy other normal cartoons for all genders and ages as well. Mind you, I'm completely straight, and still can't figure out what a 30 year old heterosexual male like myself is doing enjoying a show originally intended for little girls. Anyway, only reason I brought it up is because I think it may have something to do with how I'm feeling this time. There were a few good emotional songs in it, one by the pop singer Sia, another by Lukas Nelson, and one by Emily Blunt, in addition to a couple others. I am a bit of an emotional guy (Usually keep that private, but do tell people ocassionally, just try not to show it) and maybe that is another reason I gravitate towards that show and the movie. All that probably isn't helping me either, though I've felt sad and lonely before My little pony, lol. So there it is, I feel much better, now, lol. I'm a Brony, shame on me. Still completely secure in my masculinity somehow, lol. Well, sorry for wasting your evening with all this, I hope you at the very least found it mildly entertaining. God bless, and have a wonderful night/day, wherever you are.

Well written. Thank you for sharing.

This is a depression forum, after all, and you may have a touch of it. Most of us here experience it to various degrees. You probably came to the right place

I am a retired tanker truck driver; been on here a few years now.

Hope to see more postings from you. Blessings.

 

[Blessed Each Day]

I pray that God gives you strength and works through you, and please always get whatever you feel off your chest, you'll always feel better. If you feel better for writing your post, then it wasn't a waste of anyone's time!

Your brother in Christ,
Justin

 

[Tempura]

praying to God (which I do a lot, but try not to make it about me so often)

Just wanted to say that this is excellent. Of course it's alright to pray things for ourselves, but we can also get too stuck into ourselves and develop a certain tunnel-vision, if that makes sense. When we pray for others too it helps us to love better.

God bless.

 

[ArmourYellow]

@SkyWriting thank you. You are too kind, lol.

 

[ArmourYellow]

@Press On thank you, and obviously, as I'm sure you are well aware being in the freight transportation industry yourself, these jobs can be very isolating.

 

[tansy]

From what I understand, a lot of people who come out of the military feel kind of lost..after all, the military is very disciplined and you have to be watching out for each other (at least if on active service). And presumably if you have common aims and loyalties. Bound to be disorientating coming back to 'civvie street'.
Anyhow, I also watch cartoons with my grandkids...I particularly like 'Peppa Pig' and 'Ben and Holly's Little Kingdom'...I think they are very well written. So I wouldn't worry about it too much.

 

[ToBeLoved]

I hope that you feel better today. But don't depend on your feelings, they are feeble and fleeting.

God's Word needs to be our Rock.

 

[Blessed Each Day]

@Blessed Each Day thank you, and obviously, as I'm sure you are well aware being in the freight transportation industry yourself, these jobs can be very isolating.

Anytime, I'm glad I could help! Not in the freight industry, is that what you're in? I'd imagine that can become very isolating :/

 

[ArmourYellow]

@ToBeLoved thank you. I am feeling a bit better, but just as you say, feelings are fleeting and feeble. Thats usually one of the first things I pray if I'm feeling a certain way and know really, given all the circumstances, the big picture, that the feeling isn't right. Praying that God would change the way I'm feeling so I can focus better on what He wants for my life.

 

[ArmourYellow]

@Blessed Each Day , my apologies, I mixed your comment up with another user. Sorry, not used to the format on here yet.

 

[Press On]

@Blessed Each Day , my apologies, I mixed your comment up with another user. Sorry, not used to the format on here yet.

Lol! Confused me for a second, then realized you were actually responding to my post.

No worries. You got some good heartfelt responses from the posters. Hope you will be encouraged to become part of the family here.

Occasionally, because of mood changes, I just need a little time away from the forums. I lurk, but don’t post; and pray for those going through stuff. Always come back, though. Stick around the depression forum almost exclusively.