Rocky faith

[cinnacake]

I am a new Christian who has been struggling with rocky faith for about three years. I had zero religious influence in my childhood or early adult life and didn't find Jesus until I was almost 30. I genuinely desire a relationship with God, but faith and motivation to strengthen that relationship do not come easily to me.
I have been sick for the last year, and I have struggled both physically and mentally. Even though we have done ridiculous amounts of research and testing, we have not gotten any closer to figuring out what is causing my symptoms. I completely broke down one night, and while praying for guidance, I felt this inexplicable calm rush over me. It's hard to explain, but I instantly went from the peak of a panic attack to complete peace and this sense of conviction that I needed to have the Drs repeat a scan that I had 4 years ago. For the first time in a while, I had hope. I also had the fear that if the test results came back normal, as they all do, it would shake my faith even more.
Ultimately, the scan came back normal, which is good for my health, but in regard to my faith, I don't know what to make of it. This is all so much more complex than the brief summary I have written. I don't know.
I wholeheartedly believe in the existence of God and Jesus. I believe that Jesus died on the cross for our sins. But somehow I also feel excluded from that. Like God is real and God is good, but his love is not meant for me. I feel like I have been trying to force faith, it has never come naturally.

 

[Maria Billingsley]

I am a new Christian who has been struggling with rocky faith for about three years. I had zero religious influence in my childhood or early adult life and didn't find Jesus until I was almost 30. I genuinely desire a relationship with God, but faith and motivation to strengthen that relationship do not come easily to me.
I have been sick for the last year, and I have struggled both physically and mentally. Even though we have done ridiculous amounts of research and testing, we have not gotten any closer to figuring out what is causing my symptoms. I completely broke down one night, and while praying for guidance, I felt this inexplicable calm rush over me. It's hard to explain, but I instantly went from the peak of a panic attack to complete peace and this sense of conviction that I needed to have the Drs repeat a scan that I had 4 years ago. For the first time in a while, I had hope. I also had the fear that if the test results came back normal, as they all do, it would shake my faith even more.
Ultimately, the scan came back normal, which is good for my health, but in regard to my faith, I don't know what to make of it. This is all so much more complex than the brief summary I have written. I don't know.
I wholeheartedly believe in the existence of God and Jesus. I believe that Jesus died on the cross for our sins. But somehow I also feel excluded from that. Like God is real and God is good, but his love is not meant for me. I feel like I have been trying to force faith, it has never come naturally.

Do you Love Him?

 

[Tom8907]

Do you have fellowship with a Bible believing church, do you read God's word everyday?

 

[timf]

Christianity ca be tricky because there are many voices calming various things. It can perhaps be easier to focus on the basics. Faith is something that grows as we transition from walking in the flesh to walking by the Spirit. This journey is essentially transitioning from selfishness to selflessness.

Here is a link to a web site that has a simple description of Christianity that might help you to focus on the basic fact that your sins have been forgiven and that you are in Christ and can rest in his love.

Christian Pioneer - Christianity 101

 

[Scoutship]

I am a new Christian who has been struggling with rocky faith for about three years...

Jesus wants CHUMS, so just sit back and be glad you're one of them. and let his power automatically download into you bit by bit, day by day.

"After Jesus spent the night in prayer, everybody tried to touch him because power was coming from him" (Luke 6:12-19)
"Our gospel came to you not simply with words but also with power"- (1 Thess 1:5)
Jesus said - "Someone touched me, I know that power has gone out from me." (Luke 8:46)
And we too can "touch" him to get an instant power boost by just mumbling a few words such as "Jesus remember me" when we're tired, lonely, fed up..

 

[Muhan]

I am a new Christian who has been struggling with rocky faith for about three years. I had zero religious influence in my childhood or early adult life and didn't find Jesus until I was almost 30. I genuinely desire a relationship with God, but faith and motivation to strengthen that relationship do not come easily to me.
I have been sick for the last year, and I have struggled both physically and mentally. Even though we have done ridiculous amounts of research and testing, we have not gotten any closer to figuring out what is causing my symptoms. I completely broke down one night, and while praying for guidance, I felt this inexplicable calm rush over me. It's hard to explain, but I instantly went from the peak of a panic attack to complete peace and this sense of conviction that I needed to have the Drs repeat a scan that I had 4 years ago. For the first time in a while, I had hope. I also had the fear that if the test results came back normal, as they all do, it would shake my faith even more.
Ultimately, the scan came back normal, which is good for my health, but in regard to my faith, I don't know what to make of it. This is all so much more complex than the brief summary I have written. I don't know.
I wholeheartedly believe in the existence of God and Jesus. I believe that Jesus died on the cross for our sins. But somehow I also feel excluded from that. Like God is real and God is good, but his love is not meant for me. I feel like I have been trying to force faith, it has never come naturally.

What is your objective in life?