Rejected by god?

[boywonder123]

I feel as if god hs rejected me,and somehow mande a mistake on creating me...

I compare myself to my Christians friends who tebalways seem to be gods best,and I think he favors them..

I'm going trough a rough time as well having OCD and I'm wondering why the lord would allow this to happen to me...

I came to god when my ocd started and properly gave ny life to him,but it feels as if even he he has rejected me...or he just doesn't want me to be his..

I do have a desire for god,but not like he people in the bible...sp I believe that I can't be a Christian because of this....

I sin,and hate it when I do and get sad over it...right now I have a porn addiction...which is killing my relationship with god...

O guess I want to live by feelings more thqn faith which I know is wrong I know but it's hard to just trust inngod when it seems like he's just turned his back on me.....

I'm jealous of other people's relationships with god,because he likes them more...

I don't believe in the cliché"Jesus loves you" when clearly he doesn't....

The thing is wvey time I run away from god and go and son,my conscience playa up...and I'm sort of sensitive to the sin....i dont like praying for people's because I'm jealous god will favour them...

tbh I don't even know of I'm a proper Christian..right now of rather leas my own lode than follow god,and there's also that fear pg hell...whoch sometimes pulls me back in...

I desire to love god...even prayed for it..
but NOOOOOO god ignores me....

I'm clearly not smart enough pr cool for god to like.do k have to earn him..o know I don't but it feels like I have to in order for him to even acknowledge me...


I've sinned yes,I know Jesus is my savior etc..but my Christian life is so terrible,nothing...god jist ignores me like I'm the unwanted child...

No one bring up examples like "look at job" job..was one of gods best...im no where hear that...im.probably at the bottom of his list.

Dont say "it's Satan fuelling this"

no its just me facing reality...god hates me...or he doesn't like means much...

I'm the failure son...
God is great yes...but only for certain people he likes...maybe I'm a gentile in his eyes or something?


Am I unforgivable or something...if god Hates me I hate him...simples.

He wants to act all mean towards me...go ahead...

Also please no one say..."his son died for you"

I didn't ask for him to did I? infact I didn't even ask to be born...and be tortured by god..

To be honest in dont know what to do..im tired.

Tired of praying and trying to seek a god who doesn't even care..

 

[seeingeyes]

What does the Father do for "the failure son?"

"But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him." (Luke 15:20)

Let me ask you this. Is there anyone on the planet that you know for a fact loves you? (Not just someone who is 'supposed' to love you, but someone that clearly, undeniably loves you.)

 

[boywonder123]

My mum and dad...i understand way u mean by that verse,but I always think I'm a different subject..

 

[James-49]

My mum and dad...i understand way u mean by that verse,but I always think I'm a different subject..

If I got drunk and sat in a bar I would not experience the guilt in the same manner as if I got drunk and sat at a bible study with family and friends.

Right now you are caught up in practicing sin, and you even try blaming God - BUT the regret you experience is very much evidence that He is nearby, and not far away.

You would not regret your actions in the presence of others who practice the same, but you do regret them in the presence of One who matters - who cares and would never do what you are doing, but remains close nonetheless for when you decide to stop.

Go ahead and get tired - then tell God how tired you are and that you cannot struggle anymore. He will not disappoint. When you have had enough, He will be enough.

 

[brevis]

Are you in the business of selling slaves like John Newton?

John Newton - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

 

[Dorothea]

boywonder, I'm sorry you're feeling this way. This is my suggestion, and you can, of course, ignore it or take it. It's your choice. I think you should see a counselor with regards to your OCD (if it is hampering your being able to live out your life in a healthy manner). I also think you should talk to a counselor (and if you have a priest/pastor) about your addiction. You need help and cannot do this alone. God works through people (doctors, priests/pastors, counselors, teachers, etc.) in ways to try and help you to heal.

God never rejects anyone. It is we who separate ourselves from Him when we sin or we choose to reject Him. Think of the Prodigal Son. The father in that parable is God.

 

[brevis]

Why do you think God ignores you?

 

[ChetSinger]

Hello boywonder, you are most certainly NOT rejected by God.

If you're not already a brother in the Lord, perhaps God is calling you to him.

If you're already a brother in the Lord, here are some things that help me when I'm feeling lonely or defeated:

• Saying some prayers of thankfulness. Nothing else, just thanking God for things. I'll thank him, by name, for people he has used to help me, or for creating the beautiful things in the earth, or for Jesus' crucifixion and resurrection.
• Following James' advice to "draw near to God and he will draw near to you" by doing something extra for him.
• Volunteering at church for some new task, and helping the body of Christ.

 

[seeingeyes]

My mum and dad...i understand way u mean by that verse,but I always think I'm a different subject..

But you are not a different subject. You are loved. Your hangups do not keep your parents from loving you, finite as they are, so there's no way that your hangups can keep your Father in heaven (who is love) from loving you.

“Can a woman forget her nursing child, that she should have no compassion on the son of her womb? Even these may forget, yet I will not forget you." (Isaiah 49:15)

Here is something to consider though. We are all jugs with a spout in the side, designed not only to hold love but to pour it out. We get clogged and we quit pouring and we no longer feel God's love pouring into us. But that is not because His love has stopped flowing, it's only because we are already full. There's no place in us for His love to go, so it flows right past us, onto the next guy.

Now sin puts spider cracks in us that we are fretful about repairing, and repentance breaks us wide open. It's impossible for a broken jug to be stingy when everything pours right through it. Just as our Father wants.

You are fretting over spider cracks, and bemoaning the love that flows past you. Instead, let yourself be broken, and pour whatever little love you have onto others. And be ready for the deluge. You will be overflowing.

"Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you." (Luke 6:38)

It's already raining, little brother.

 

[Emmy]

Dear boywonder123. God does not reject anyone, who truly wants to love God. There is a way to show God that you really Love God. Jesus told us in
Matthew 22: 35-40: " Love God with all thy heart, with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. Also: Love thy neighbour as thyself." Start treating all you know and all you meet, as you would love to be treated: always kindly and with friendly words. God will see your efforts, and God will Bless you. God will also know that you love God, because you follow God`s Commandments to Love. Jesus will give you His Love and Joy, and the Holy Spirit will empower you with His Love, also. Jesus told us to "ask and ye will receive," then thank God and share all love and kind words with your neighbour.( Matthew7: 7-8)
God wants our love, freely given and No tags attached. Jesus will help and guide you, and you will find that people treat you the same, Love is very catching, boywonder. I say this with love. Greetings from Emmy, your sister in Christ.

 

[Nanopants]

I tend to think we all have to do our time in the desert, and I've certainly been there. It may be that you need to let go of a few things before you can move on, and, in my experience, one lie that can hold you back is that God does not want to bless you and He does not want to give you the desires of your heart. I don't believe that's true for anyone, it's just that sometimes our desires can destroy us if only because we hold on too tightly, and we need to learn to let go and hang on to Him.

 

[boywonder123]

Thank you guys....i just need yo learn to trust more on his word than my feelings.