hey all - this isn't my first time on this board. i had a username in the past but since deleted my account.
i'm back because i'm struggling with this particular situation.
i'm 27 years old and am totally in love with my faith. i've gained so much wisdom since walking in Christianity. i had an inner peace i can't express - God lives in me.
except, when it comes to men. i always wanted to wait until i was married to have sex, but i was raped at 18 and fell into a trap of giving men my body. i went to confession shortly after as i was taught God is the only who can heal and my priest said i need to take some blame for being alone with a man. it absolutely broke me down and i resented my faith in addition to men. in the last 9 years, i've been pretty attracted to broken relationships and have been treated like dirt by men.
every single time i get disappointed by a man, my entire past is coupled with the hurt and i go into a deep depression. there's nothing anyone can tell me that makes it better..just time or another man.
i am celebate - it's more of a hurt by men who will not commit or who treat me like an object.
i try and try to pray for healing. i don't know how to find peace in such a crucial area.
i'm back because i'm struggling with this particular situation.
i'm 27 years old and am totally in love with my faith. i've gained so much wisdom since walking in Christianity. i had an inner peace i can't express - God lives in me.
except, when it comes to men. i always wanted to wait until i was married to have sex, but i was raped at 18 and fell into a trap of giving men my body. i went to confession shortly after as i was taught God is the only who can heal and my priest said i need to take some blame for being alone with a man. it absolutely broke me down and i resented my faith in addition to men. in the last 9 years, i've been pretty attracted to broken relationships and have been treated like dirt by men.
every single time i get disappointed by a man, my entire past is coupled with the hurt and i go into a deep depression. there's nothing anyone can tell me that makes it better..just time or another man.
i am celebate - it's more of a hurt by men who will not commit or who treat me like an object.
i try and try to pray for healing. i don't know how to find peace in such a crucial area.
