random Depressions...

[Pentecostal Boy]

Hi. Well I have a weird kind of depression. It's one that triggers itself. Feeling unloved for even one second or uninvolved can set it off. I hate it! I'm usually like this--- But I am totally different when I have a depression attack I guess you could call it. Then I am like- . I know where it all stems from. A old depression that wasn't pure depression it was caused by a death. Actually a four pronged death. A pet, two grandparents, and my Aunt (my mom's twin at that). The bad memories of almost a decade ago haunt me in my waking moments when i'm awake. Satan himself was after my family. We escaped with god's help. But my family was never the same. Who knew that three people could hold together the seems of a family? After they died my family was broken into a small family. Something that, at the time, I wasn't at all used to. I never go back to the house where it all happened. The last time I went back was so I didn't forget the good memories of my past. God knows I need as many of them as possible. Now I have an Aunt who God only knows where she truely is. She's running from something that she did but she's only made it worse. I stay worried about her. Can I have any help????

Thanks,
Merry Christmas,
~Pentecostal Boy.

P.S. No i've never gone to a phsyciatrist....

 

[heffalump_hunter]

Hi. Well I have a weird kind of depression. It's one that triggers itself. Feeling unloved for even one second or uninvolved can set it off. I hate it! I'm usually like this--- But I am totally different when I have a depression attack I guess you could call it. Then I am like- . I know where it all stems from. A old depression that wasn't pure depression it was caused by a death. Actually a four pronged death. A pet, two grandparents, and my Aunt (my mom's twin at that). The bad memories of almost a decade ago haunt me in my waking moments when i'm awake. Satan himself was after my family. We escaped with god's help. But my family was never the same. Who knew that three people could hold together the seems of a family? After they died my family was broken into a small family. Something that, at the time, I wasn't at all used to. I never go back to the house where it all happened. The last time I went back was so I didn't forget the good memories of my past. God knows I need as many of them as possible. Now I have an Aunt who God only knows where she truely is. She's running from something that she did but she's only made it worse. I stay worried about her. Can I have any help????

Thanks,
Merry Christmas,
~Pentecostal Boy.

P.S. No i've never gone to a phsyciatrist....

Hi Pentecostal Boy,

I'm very sorry that you are feeling down at this time. Being a fellow sufferer I understand to a certain degree your feelings. However, it sounds like you have had a very rough loss.

Depression has many different "triggers" and many different ways of manifesting itself. In my instance I sometimes get "the blues" and more often, I get symptoms that actually seem like I have the flu.

There are so many triggers to depression there wouldn't be room to write them all down.

I would urge you to see a doctor if this persists or happens frequently. It doesn't have to be a psychiatrist necessarily. I only see my family doctor.

Lean on Jesus as He will carry your burden for you if you let Him.

I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[Audiomechanic]

WOW! Lots of us on this board.

I feel your pain. What you are experiancing is a mild bi-polar disorder. I have the same thing and can relate to your triggers though sometimes with me it truely is completely random. Perhaps your loss trigered this initialy but I tend to think it's more chemical than emitional. I want to urge that if you do seek help, seek it from a pastor/preacher/phychiatrist/psychologist before a doctor. Doctor's don't know what's going on in your mind and all they will do for you is mediacte you. I used to be on medication but weened myself off of it. It was horrible.

You can learn to control this as I have but it will take time and prayer. The Lord will help you thorugh this. I have learned to control it by (this will sound wierd) consciously adjusting the production of certain chemicals in my brain. It's kinda hard to explain but the best way I can do it is, when I feel a low coming, instead of focusing on things that are happy to avoid it, I focus on surpressing the low. Pushing it down and out if you will. Kinda wierd but it works for me. I haven't had a serious low in over a year. Minor one's here and there.

I will pray for you, my friend. You will find a solution, if you want one badly enough. Medication, I am convinced is nothing more than a crutch that will only slow you down.

-Shane

 

[daughteroftheking1983]

hi there
it sounds like you have had a really tough time and are still reeling from it. Do you find it helpful to talk things through? If so, is there someone in your church like a pastor or healing ministry team that you could talk to and have them pray with you? It sounds like the devil really had a go at your family and you are still carrying the scars. Let the Lord heal you as He is the only one who can truely do it. Christian counselling is great and I thoroughly recommend it-it's not a quick fix but can help you get perspective and work through things.
With the symptoms you are describing, I agree with one of the other posts that you might have a mild bipolar disorder which is a mood disorder that fluctuates between depression and mania or hypomania, although classically these periods are for longer times that you are describing. See how it goes and if you felt comfortable with it, talking to your family doctor might help as they may be able to point you in the right directions. medication might help you although every case is different

I hope this helps! PM me if you would like to talk further

 

[Pentecostal Boy]

Thanks guys . Today is one of my up days! YEAH!!!!! I need to go to a shrink (sry I know it's slng but i'm too lazy to type today it's Christmas! )

I'm gonna talk to my youth pastor... I have been needing to talk since 1996 but as u all know grief keeps depression in and makes u feel that if u let it out all of the pain come back. Although I know it's not, true depression has a way of holding on to u. But with god, my family, and my friends I can get through this God bless and Merry Christmas!


~Pentecostal Boy

 

[heffalump_hunter]

Thanks guys . Today is one of my up days! YEAH!!!!! I need to go to a shrink (sry I know it's slng but i'm too lazy to type today it's Christmas! )

I'm gonna talk to my youth pastor... I have been needing to talk since 1996 but as u all know grief keeps depression in and makes u feel that if u let it out all of the pain come back. Although I know it's not, true depression has a way of holding on to u. But with god, my family, and my friends I can get through this God bless and Merry Christmas!


~Pentecostal Boy

May God bless you with plent of up days Pentecostal Boy!

I don't see a shrink myself, I go to my family doctor, but I use the word shrink too.

Praise God for his blessings!

 

[thunderbyrd]

i have bi-polar disorder, too. one thing that will help alot, has helped me alot: make a time of day every single day to get on your knees and spend time with the Lord. if you'll establish that habit now, it'll help you all your life with this problem. and another thing: if you are bi-polar, by all means stay away from drugs and alcohol. they'll only make everything much worse for you.

God Bless you, Man of God!

 

[thunderbyrd]

i have bi-polar disorder, too. one thing that will help alot, has helped me alot: make a time of day every single day to get on your knees and spend time with the Lord. if you'll establish that habit now, it'll help you all your life with this problem. and another thing: if you are bi-polar, by all means stay away from drugs and alcohol. they'll only make everything much worse for you.

God Bless you, Man of God!

 

[ForeverSeekingLight]

Hey,
Sounds like you are going through a rough time. My only advice is to keep on praying and I dont know if you are open to it (i havent read any of the other replies), but maybe seek out a christian counsellor. Sometimes just being able to talk troubles out helps alot.

I hope you are feeling better. Im always here to listen if you need someone.

Becky