Questions too much

[Wonders]

About month ago I asked Jesus to forgive me of my sins and to be my Lord and Saviour.

I find now that part of me wants to know Jesus more, but more of me just cannot trust Him. Difficult circumstances have come up in my life and I find I cannt simply give everything to Him and then not worry about it. I fight things, I argue, I get mad and ask "why does it have to be this way."

I think if I really believed He was a loving God and in control, then I would not rebel. There is a part of me that wants to believe, but I doubt so much.

I feel I cannot do this. Then I wonder if that is how I am supposed to feel, since "I can't."

When thoughts come through my head that I am a rotten person etc. I know in my head this is not what God thinks, but it is hard for me to get rid of these thoughts. Then I feel guilty cause I'm thinking the thoughts. A nice circle is started. I believe God loves me because the Bible says so, but I do not "feel" this most of the time, although I do some, sometimes. Then I feel guilty about that. Etc.

I have gone to church but am slow to somehow reach out to someone, a stranger?, and say excuse me I have some questions...

Thanks

 

[rogsr]

Jesus said "..some seeds will be planted in the ground and when they grow up they will be chocked out by thorns.." ..."these are all the ones whose faith is at first and then is chocked out by the cares of the world.(paraphrased)" Don't be that guy. We all have questions, believe me I have a new question as soon as the last one is answered. You either have faith through the hard times to get to the good times or you lose your faith. Either way God will still be there. Feel free to ask me some questions, I don't have all the answers but maybe we can work through them.

In the absence of strong faith, hope and love will do.

 

[Ceris]

PM me or post here and I will be willing answer any questions you have. And also don't be too discouraged. Relationships (such as your relationship with God) only mature with time and effort. I have considered myself a Christian for most of my life, and yet only during the past few years have I had a mature relationship with God.

 

[Saved_from_flames]

I know how you feel. A medical issue was what brought me back to Christ; and although I have left it in His hands; part of me still wonders why I have to endure it.

Take comfort that God has a plan for you, and you alone. Every step you take is watched and loved; and He will never let you fall.

A month ago; I was a dedicated agnostic and would never have dreamed of writing that. if you need proof of faith; I hope mine helps!

You're in safe hands!

 

[GodSaves]

Becoming a new Christian can be quite difficult. I see you understand that becoming a new Christian change is needed. But it can be difficult to feel worthy of a love so deep as the one that God gives us. For we are sinners and even though no matter what sin we do or have done God still loves us. It is hard for our human mind to grasp how one could be like this. But I tell you the truth this is God, He loves you and I no matter what. There is nothing more that He wants then to have fellowship with you. He wants to be your best friend, He wants to be there for you in every way. He wants to give you peace, and eternal life. And all He asks?... that you believe in His Son Jesus Christ.

Life is never easy. But you can rest assured that God loves you no matter what. If God did not love you or I, then He would not have sent His Son, who was blameless, sinless, and loving to die a horrible death, just for us. For the Son is God. And He suffered for you and I so that He can give us eternal life. Now that is unconditional love. Even those who truly hate God, He loves them.

His love, we will never truly understand and may never feel worthy of. But He still loves us. We can trust in Him that He will love us no matter what, for He created us.

I know it's hard, but let go of yourself and don't question why God loves you, just know that He does and always will. I write this out of love, love that God has given me to give. Trust in Him and He will not fail you.

 

[Horse Luver]

Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will keep your path straight."
The key here is "lean not on your own understanding"!!

First of all, stop saying "I can't". Of course you can! The only way we "can't" is if we don't have God's help. The Bible says we can do all things through Christ. You need to pray to Him and ask for His help. You can trust God, because He will NEVER leave or forsake you. I understand having doubts......we all do at one time or another. It's just being human. And it is quite overwhelming to think, "God loves ME?". Then you think, "BUT WHY???". I don't know why He loves me, but I am very glad He does! He understands all you're going through, He truly does. Just do a lot of praying, and ask God all these questions you have. Help will come.

And I'm sure all the ppl at your church will be more than willing to help you understand these things, so don't be hesitant in asking!!