This is going to be my 700th post and I wanted to make it a nice one... something uplifting, and so I thought I would write a little bit of testimony here.
God was explained to me when I was a very young girl, about grade one or two... my family was not religious or church-goers, but my mom taught me how to say the Lords Prayer.
I hung onto that prayer and said it alot, I used to recite it whenever I was afraid. Whenever I could I would try to read parts of the bible but it was hard to understand because it was an old King James format.
Anyways... I had a pretty hard life. I grew up in an abusive home, wasn't really given support or good encouragement. I was very rebellious when I was a teenager. I became near homeless and was almost starving to death in poverty. I had abusive boyfreinds and hung out with bad people all the time. I had no self worth and became suicidal. The bible was helpful but I did not learn very much from it...2 Corinthians 4:3 But even if our gospel is veiled, it is veiled to those who are perishing, 4 whose minds the god of this age has blinded, who do not believe, lest the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God, should shine on them.
So I continued like this for a long time. I entered into bad relationships and drank, smoked, hated myself and my life. Always I wondered where God was... had He abandoned me? I knew that God would not respond to me as long as I lived in sin and rebellion. Even then I was hardened against God. Still I read the bible, listened to preachers on TV and went to church every now and then. I even was baptised in a Holy Spirit filled church and I had people that prayed for me alot.
Eventually I decided that I could no longer live in sin anymore... I got married, gave up drinking and smoking, decided to stay home to be a good wife and mother and ask God what He wanted to do in my life.
For some reason Psalm 23 was always special to me. I first heard it at my grandmothers funeral as a young girl, but it made a deep impression on me. It wasn't until years later ... I was sitting in my living room and God showed me a vision...
... I was coming up out of a valley and there were trees on each side of me behind me the darkness in a valley was as thick as paint and there was no light that could pass into it. I could see a path in front of me, it was straight and narrow. I heard the words "Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil"
I knew that God was telling me that I had been in the valley of death for a very long time and now I was coming up out of it. But He let me know that death could only cast a shadow upon me and not harm me because God had always been watching over me, even while I wandered through the darkness.
I am glad that I gave my life to the Lord and that God brought me out of the darkness. I used to be so lonely and unloved. I used to be beaten up and verbally attacked. I tried to commit suicide. I wandered the streets looking into restaurant windows wishing I could eat. And my life was so terribly lonely.
Now God has blessed me with His salvation and truth. God has given me a wonderful and kind husband, and children. We all love the Lord. I cry somedays when I sit at the table and eat with my family because I know how very lonely and hungry I used to be and how God now feeds my spiritually with the bread of life and has given me a loving family.
Thank you God. Thank you Jesus for giving me so much when I dont deserve it, what a wonderful gift You are to me. I love you Jesus!
God was explained to me when I was a very young girl, about grade one or two... my family was not religious or church-goers, but my mom taught me how to say the Lords Prayer.
I hung onto that prayer and said it alot, I used to recite it whenever I was afraid. Whenever I could I would try to read parts of the bible but it was hard to understand because it was an old King James format.
Anyways... I had a pretty hard life. I grew up in an abusive home, wasn't really given support or good encouragement. I was very rebellious when I was a teenager. I became near homeless and was almost starving to death in poverty. I had abusive boyfreinds and hung out with bad people all the time. I had no self worth and became suicidal. The bible was helpful but I did not learn very much from it...2 Corinthians 4:3 But even if our gospel is veiled, it is veiled to those who are perishing, 4 whose minds the god of this age has blinded, who do not believe, lest the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God, should shine on them.
So I continued like this for a long time. I entered into bad relationships and drank, smoked, hated myself and my life. Always I wondered where God was... had He abandoned me? I knew that God would not respond to me as long as I lived in sin and rebellion. Even then I was hardened against God. Still I read the bible, listened to preachers on TV and went to church every now and then. I even was baptised in a Holy Spirit filled church and I had people that prayed for me alot.
Eventually I decided that I could no longer live in sin anymore... I got married, gave up drinking and smoking, decided to stay home to be a good wife and mother and ask God what He wanted to do in my life.
For some reason Psalm 23 was always special to me. I first heard it at my grandmothers funeral as a young girl, but it made a deep impression on me. It wasn't until years later ... I was sitting in my living room and God showed me a vision...
... I was coming up out of a valley and there were trees on each side of me behind me the darkness in a valley was as thick as paint and there was no light that could pass into it. I could see a path in front of me, it was straight and narrow. I heard the words "Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil"
I knew that God was telling me that I had been in the valley of death for a very long time and now I was coming up out of it. But He let me know that death could only cast a shadow upon me and not harm me because God had always been watching over me, even while I wandered through the darkness.
I am glad that I gave my life to the Lord and that God brought me out of the darkness. I used to be so lonely and unloved. I used to be beaten up and verbally attacked. I tried to commit suicide. I wandered the streets looking into restaurant windows wishing I could eat. And my life was so terribly lonely.
Now God has blessed me with His salvation and truth. God has given me a wonderful and kind husband, and children. We all love the Lord. I cry somedays when I sit at the table and eat with my family because I know how very lonely and hungry I used to be and how God now feeds my spiritually with the bread of life and has given me a loving family.
Thank you God. Thank you Jesus for giving me so much when I dont deserve it, what a wonderful gift You are to me. I love you Jesus!
