- Aug 8, 2017
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I don't know if its because i feel like alot is happening right now or what, or I finally have a day that I am alone in my thoughts, but I feel so low. This is probably a rant.
Since I have stuff to do to prepare for a trip to Florida early tomorrow to spend Thanksgiving week with my parents, I decided that I might not be able to drive to church and get all the cleaning done today. But truly, its also because I felt depressed this week despite the stuff accomplished, and I didn't want to spend another Sunday, among those that look right through me Sunday after Sunday and would rather ask how my parents are than how I'm feeling ( I plan to change church). It would make me feel more depressed.
But as I was cleaning out the fridge, a wave of depression came over me. And I feel so inadequate in life.I just wanna crawl into my bed, ignore my phone, and watch the day pass by. I see others able to function, and this flesh and my thoughts just cripples me. I wish Jesus would just come take me. I have so much in my mind, but there's no one to talk to that would understand, like I am alone in my thoughts.I'm always doing something for someone, so this is the only day in a while where I actually can have a moment to think and feel right now, and I guess I capitalize it by ignoring everyone and everything.
Pray for me though.
Since I have stuff to do to prepare for a trip to Florida early tomorrow to spend Thanksgiving week with my parents, I decided that I might not be able to drive to church and get all the cleaning done today. But truly, its also because I felt depressed this week despite the stuff accomplished, and I didn't want to spend another Sunday, among those that look right through me Sunday after Sunday and would rather ask how my parents are than how I'm feeling ( I plan to change church). It would make me feel more depressed.
But as I was cleaning out the fridge, a wave of depression came over me. And I feel so inadequate in life.I just wanna crawl into my bed, ignore my phone, and watch the day pass by. I see others able to function, and this flesh and my thoughts just cripples me. I wish Jesus would just come take me. I have so much in my mind, but there's no one to talk to that would understand, like I am alone in my thoughts.I'm always doing something for someone, so this is the only day in a while where I actually can have a moment to think and feel right now, and I guess I capitalize it by ignoring everyone and everything.
Pray for me though.