Prayer request

[Zoleee]

Hi my friends in Christ!

You may remember me, I suffer from OCD, and I have asked some questions about Catholic faith a few months ago here. For years I was struggling with depression and panic disorder, and God used it for my good, because I've found Him due to my anxiety. With time I have became a full Catholic Christian. I still had struggles with sin, but I think I was on the narrow path, with some ups and downs.

But everything has changed a few weeks ago. From nowhere, I had a panic attack. I haven't had a this intense attack in 1,5 years. The symptoms were typical symptoms of a panic attack, but it was extremely huge. I was yelling that I'll die with my parents.

This day had a huge impact on my life. When I had the attack, I had a strange feeling, a feeling of numbness and "nothing". And this indicated doubts in my life. I have never doubted the existence of God, I have believed in Him before I was born again. And now it all came to me. I have spent a ton of time with researches about faith, God, near-death experiences, etc.

And my fear of death which I haven't had in 4 years came back. I am extremely afraid of death, and I am extremely afraid that there is nothing after death, there is no existence after death. I think and think and research and overthink.

I love God, I love Jesus. He totally changed my life 4 years ago when I gave my life to Jesus. I feel like I was able to be a better and better person because of Him. I read my Bible every day for years now, and I pray a lot. I pray a Rosary, a Divine Mercy and other prayers every day, no matter if I don't have time. I make time for it. I literally life for God and Jesus.

Now there extreme fear that "what if there is no God" tortures me. I am not the person I used to be. I have anxiety 27/7, I even have struggles with being able to do everyday things. Altough His grace still covers me, because for a strange reason I am able to go to work and spend 9 hours there.

Has anyone else had periods like mine in their life? What helped? I have posted this here, because I am a Roman Catholic and I need Catholic answers.

If you have a minute, please pray for me.

Love you and God bless

 

[Dave G.]

Just for what it's worth my time of several decades of living in the catholic church was plagued with anxiety. Then I came to Jesus upstairs in my bedroom away from that organization, I became closer and closer to the person of Jesus Christ and it all went away. Jesus is my focus , not a church organization.. Just sayin.

So I pray: Jesus guide Zoleee through this difficult time, be with him and him with You, light his path, Lord. Just as you have lit the path of so many others who follow you. Amen

 

[Anhelyna]

Panic attacks are truly horrible - and can be completely disabling. I still have them from time to time - some 20 years after being involved in a fire.

Prayers for you Zolee

 

[Stabat Mater dolorosa]

Just for what it's worth my time of several decades of living in the catholic church was plagued with anxiety. Then I came to Jesus upstairs in my bedroom away from that organization, I became closer and closer to the person of Jesus Christ and it all went away. Jesus is my focus , not a church organization.. Just sayin.

So I pray: Jesus guide Zoleee through this difficult time, be with him and him with You, light his path, Lord. Just as you have lit the path of so many others who follow you. Amen

Please refrain yourself from bashing the Catholic church in obob, thanks.
Rules R rules just saying.

 

[Dave G.]

Please refrain yourself from bashing the Catholic church in obob, thanks.
Rules R rules just saying.

Stabat ? I was not bashing the church, I'm sorry you took it that way. I was stating what my position was or how my state was while there. I said nothing against the church except my experience did not go well. PTL if you are happy there !

See you in heaven.

Incdentally it sounds like the OP could use a prayer and maybe some guidance.

 

[Stabat Mater dolorosa]

Hi my friends in Christ!

You may remember me, I suffer from OCD, and I have asked some questions about Catholic faith a few months ago here. For years I was struggling with depression and panic disorder, and God used it for my good, because I've found Him due to my anxiety. With time I have became a full Catholic Christian. I still had struggles with sin, but I think I was on the narrow path, with some ups and downs.

But everything has changed a few weeks ago. From nowhere, I had a panic attack. I haven't had a this intense attack in 1,5 years. The symptoms were typical symptoms of a panic attack, but it was extremely huge. I was yelling that I'll die with my parents.

This day had a huge impact on my life. When I had the attack, I had a strange feeling, a feeling of numbness and "nothing". And this indicated doubts in my life. I have never doubted the existence of God, I have believed in Him before I was born again. And now it all came to me. I have spent a ton of time with researches about faith, God, near-death experiences, etc.

And my fear of death which I haven't had in 4 years came back. I am extremely afraid of death, and I am extremely afraid that there is nothing after death, there is no existence after death. I think and think and research and overthink.

I love God, I love Jesus. He totally changed my life 4 years ago when I gave my life to Jesus. I feel like I was able to be a better and better person because of Him. I read my Bible every day for years now, and I pray a lot. I pray a Rosary, a Divine Mercy and other prayers every day, no matter if I don't have time. I make time for it. I literally life for God and Jesus.

Now there extreme fear that "what if there is no God" tortures me. I am not the person I used to be. I have anxiety 27/7, I even have struggles with being able to do everyday things. Altough His grace still covers me, because for a strange reason I am able to go to work and spend 9 hours there.

Has anyone else had periods like mine in their life? What helped? I have posted this here, because I am a Roman Catholic and I need Catholic answers.

If you have a minute, please pray for me.

Love you and God bless

Dear Zoleee,
The short answer is yes. yes ive been there, though not for as long as you have.
I find our very existense utterly absurd and impossible to explain in atheistic terms, its simply NOT consistent nor coherent for us to be intelligent beings on this planet in this fine-tuned universe. God is real and God does exist, he has put the entire universe there for us to see and recognise him.

So God exist no doubt, but what then? What will happen after death?
No-one knows because nobody alive in the world have gone through it and remained on earth.
Again its a matter of faith combined with logic really. Is it logic for God (we have established he`s alive and exists) to create humans out of dust only to see them witter and perish?
Read the epsitles of Paul I encourages you, especially the Romans.
Paul tells us no-one who belongs to Christ will ever end up in shame.

Romans 10:11-13 New King James Version (NKJV)

11 For the Scripture says, “Whoever believes on Him will not be put to shame 12 For there is no distinction between Jew and Greek, for the same Lord over all is rich to all who call upon Him. 13 For “whoever calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved.”

Christ is the ressurection, Christ is the life, He and He alone is my and your eternity and salvation. Fear not, fear not Christ, his angels and the Lord has said multiple times throughout Scripture and thats what you and I have to work on. We have to work on our trust. We need to fully trust God and believe he`ll indeed redeem us as he has promised.
What choice do we have other than total surrender?

Im afraid of dying yes, what will happen to me then?
I dont know, but dont you remember we`re dead, burried and risen with Christ already in baptism. Im growing more and more certain that we`ll not even know what hit us when we die.
Im confident we`ll see Christ the son of Man our king THE MOMENT we die, no pause!

That Im certain is why Christ tell us this in the gospel of John:

John 11:25-26 New American Bible (Revised Edition) (NABRE)

25 Jesus told her, “I am the resurrection and the life; whoever believes in me, even if he dies, will live, and everyone who lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe this?”


We will die as in appear dead to the world and our beloved ones left behind, those who go to our requiem mass and those who see our coffin. But no we will indeed NEVER die!
We pass on from Earth the moment we breed for the last time, but we will pass on straight to see Christ. Not as judge, but as comfort and peace.

As Paul Writes it;
Romans 8:1-2 NABRE
1 Hence, now there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. 2 For the law of the spirit of life in Christ Jesus has freed you from the law of sin and death.