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gentlefire
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the last six months i've had loads of troubles and even though i've tried to stay with God and stand on His word and do what He would want but i have failed and fallen into sin agian not as bad as was before God freed me but bad so that temptation has been difficult to fight off. everyone goes through this. some i have no doubt was sent to destroy me and take me away from what i was doing right in God's kingdom but even when i knew that i still couldn't fight and broke and i could scream at how far from God i feel and how i've failed and the results i now have to live with.
i want to come back to what it was like before with God.
i have been taken out of fellowship because of my own weakness to follow God this is an agony for me, i come here for fellowship would you believe but i can't do it and this will be my last post for a while because i am too weak to read or handle anything negative that is here, continual fighting amongst deliverance workers what a joke, you're supposed to be the most loving people. there is some with God's love here and i really appreciate the people who have reached out to me, i cried all last night because of someone saying they were there for me and it was heartfelt God bless that person. i'm asking for prayer here because i don't have the strength to post anymore and i don't want to, i dont' like it here but there are people here who are real deliverance people who maybe understand what is happening to me. may sound feeble but it's the truth. idon't want any more trouble
edited just tosay this was posted in a different part of cf which is why its like this, was going to edit it all but sigh, i don't know what to say that makes any more sense anyway.
i want to come back to what it was like before with God.
i have been taken out of fellowship because of my own weakness to follow God this is an agony for me, i come here for fellowship would you believe but i can't do it and this will be my last post for a while because i am too weak to read or handle anything negative that is here, continual fighting amongst deliverance workers what a joke, you're supposed to be the most loving people. there is some with God's love here and i really appreciate the people who have reached out to me, i cried all last night because of someone saying they were there for me and it was heartfelt God bless that person. i'm asking for prayer here because i don't have the strength to post anymore and i don't want to, i dont' like it here but there are people here who are real deliverance people who maybe understand what is happening to me. may sound feeble but it's the truth. idon't want any more trouble
edited just tosay this was posted in a different part of cf which is why its like this, was going to edit it all but sigh, i don't know what to say that makes any more sense anyway.