Prayer request

[Marionette]

As some of you know, after I became pregnant recently out of wedlock, I recommitted my chasity to the Lord. Well.. after tonight I'm thinking it's going to be harder than before.
I wont go into details but tonight I went over to a guy friend's house and.. things were beyond friendly. I haven't gone back on my promise of no more sex but we crossed a line I'd drawn in my heart.
I -DON'T- want to fall back in that rut!! Please, please pray for me and my friend. He is also a Christian and I don't want us to drag eachother down.

My thanks in advance. You all are really such a sweet community and a blessing to one who feels so alone sometimes.

 

[lin1235]

I'll pray for you!

 

[christiankate]

praying too!

 

[katelyn]

Are you involved in a church?

 

[RoseofLima]

Certainly praying ...and here if you want to talk. I am like the queen of having children out of wedlock! Pregnant now for the eigth time- I am only now breaking even with as many pregnancies inside marriage as outside.

When I became pregnant with my now nearly 9 year old son ( I had already had a miscarriage and two babies I gave up for adoption)...I was very convicted to live chastely and my then boyfirend (now husband) miraculously agreed. It was very hard- and I fell a couple of times over the next three years until we were married....but I am so grateful that God gave me the grace to do this and to persevere even when I had faltered. It was the beginning of the decade of healing that has ensued from mistreatment of my sexuality both by others and myself.

Most of all --don't give into discouragement. Discouragement is sent straight from the Devil- to get you to abandon you virtuous plans. If you falter- go immediately and ask forgiveness and for the grace to be strengthened to fight again. Jesus isn't wagging His finger at you- but knows that deep seated, long established behaviours are so dificult to change---all we need to do is keep trying!

i'll be praying for you--I am here if you want to talk or need encouragement!

 

[RoseofLima]

Also- one other thing--- while you are changing your patterns of behaviour-- you need to be distrustful of yourself. Don't put yourself in a situation where you will be alone with a guy. As a Catholic- we call that 'a near occassion of sin'. It is not wrong or bad to be alone with a guy- but when you are trying to change from a life of unchastity- it can be putting yourself in a position where your wounds and brokenesses will make it too hard for you to resist.

It took me a decade to feel healed enough to be able to be friends with a man other than my husband....and even then I had to be very, very cautious and prudent about what we would talk about, etc.....

 

[Marionette]

Are you involved in a church?

Not at the moment but my mom and I both decided we needed to get back in the habbit several weeks ago, we just haven't done so yet. Thanks for reminding me, though! I'll see if she wants to go this Sunday.

And thank you for your prayers and support, ladies. I appreciate it so much!