This may seem selfish and silly, but I was wondering if you all could pray that God would grant me wisdom right now and also healing for my soul. For some strange reason, I have been thinking of my past with my ex-husband. Counting our period of dating we were together for almost seven years. We practically grew up together. We divorced for several reasons, one being he became abusive and I wanted out. We didn't try to work it out. I honestly believe had I not ran away from it all, with God's help, we would have worked it out. I don't think he would have left me.
Anyway, to make a very long story short, in the end he turned to another woman for comfort and understanding and he has now married this woman and they are expecting a child. Actually, he got her pregnant and was hesitant on marrying her because he's not sure it's his child but that's beside the point. Last March when I heard the news of their marriage I cried to my mother, "it's too late, isn't it?" She didn't have an answer. I've since had a baby, had many failed relationships, lived in "the world", established for myself a home and a job, and have come back to Christ and strengthened my relationship with Him beyond all measure. It hurts because I don't know if I married him outside the will of God or if we were meant to be together and I divorced him outside of the will of God. Now things seem so uncertain.
I need prayer for my bitterness. I occasionally entertain thoughts of contacting him and asking him to forgive me. I have dreams about us being together. There is not one place I can go which does not have some memory of the two of us attached to it. We shared so much history together. We were a young Christian couple who probably got married too young and now I'm suffering the consequences of it. I have begged God that if these feelings are not of Him to take them away. I know I can't erase my memory but take away my longing to be with this man if it's not in His will. Please pray for godly wisdom. I need all I can get.
Thank you so much and God bless you all.
Anyway, to make a very long story short, in the end he turned to another woman for comfort and understanding and he has now married this woman and they are expecting a child. Actually, he got her pregnant and was hesitant on marrying her because he's not sure it's his child but that's beside the point. Last March when I heard the news of their marriage I cried to my mother, "it's too late, isn't it?" She didn't have an answer. I've since had a baby, had many failed relationships, lived in "the world", established for myself a home and a job, and have come back to Christ and strengthened my relationship with Him beyond all measure. It hurts because I don't know if I married him outside the will of God or if we were meant to be together and I divorced him outside of the will of God. Now things seem so uncertain.
I need prayer for my bitterness. I occasionally entertain thoughts of contacting him and asking him to forgive me. I have dreams about us being together. There is not one place I can go which does not have some memory of the two of us attached to it. We shared so much history together. We were a young Christian couple who probably got married too young and now I'm suffering the consequences of it. I have begged God that if these feelings are not of Him to take them away. I know I can't erase my memory but take away my longing to be with this man if it's not in His will. Please pray for godly wisdom. I need all I can get.
Thank you so much and God bless you all.
