pray for the right path..

[lOstLamB]

After all the difficulties, drama, and fights that my boyfriend and i have been experiencing in the last few months.. all resulting in harsh words and "i hate you and i don't care if i ever speak to you again"s.. i've continued struggling with wanting to be a better Christian and trying to connect my love and care for my boyfriend with my own personal big picture. i have come to be so dependent upon this man that part of the reason i don't let go of the relationship (no matter how bad it gets) is that i need him to feel normal, safe, and secure. i just need him in my life. i've been fighting with myself and praying for some kind of answer to show me what i need to be doing.. because i know that i should never be 100% dependent on someone to feel whole, and that that prevents me from being 100% in tune with God. well i spent the day with him today, and it was truly a wonderful and easygoing day. we laughed and hugged and genuinely enjoyed each others' company.. i got back home and he called me and asked me suddenly how i would feel about just being friends with him. he told me he knows he loves me but he also questions whether it's right for us to be together at this point.. and that he wouldn't want me out of his life no matter what. after 4 years of a serious relationship w/ me, and the FACT that he NEVER has even considered this an option with past girlfriends, it truly caught me by surprise. i took it as a sign from God- that He was helping by keeping him in my life as a friend (something i've always desired but understood to be impossible), but allowing me to take that step out of my comfort zone and out of my romantic relationship with him. my prayer request is for the decision i will make based on his suggestion. it hurts SO much to imagine him falling in love with someone else and them sharing what we have.. but the pain that is a result of our fights and cruel words as a couple hurt just as bad too.. i don't know where to go from here, and i pray that God will shine His light upon the path that i am meant to take..

 

[wvmtnkid]

Praying for you lOstLamB. It is never easy to end a relationship with someone you care about, particularly if you are not the one who wants it to end. But I think in the end you have to take a look at the toil the relationship is taking on you. If staying with someone is not good for you or is hurting you, it is better to end things before more damage can be done. The good thing to know is that God is always there and will not desert you. His Word says that He will never leave you or forsake you.

Praying that God will show you and you will be open to His guidance in this relationship and that healing of past hurts can begin.

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