Pray for my sanity

Its as if sometimes my mind purposely tunes out everyone, like im there but not present, or its my mind's way of saying that its shutting down. And when im aware, I feel like I say something and people are against it somehow, or I feel picked on for no reason, im never feel like im in the same page with people. I feel like im always defending myself when talking to people around me, even if I thought we were saying the same thing. It happens everyday.

At some point I stop paying attention, like I dont want to hear anyone anymore, and im too scared to engage.I mentally shut down, and my mind feels like its escaping me. Sometimes I try to gasp it back, but with no luck, i just retreat to bed.

So pray for me.