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I don't think I am saved. I like sin too much, or the pleasures of sin. But my sin makes me miserable after I give into temptation. I have certain addictions that are sinful. I want to stop these habits so I don't end up in hell.
I am afraid to go to bed at night. I am afraid that if I go to sleep, I will wake up in hell. It scares me so much.
But why doesn't my fear stop me from sinning? I mean, when I am tempted, I forget about how miserable my behavior makes me afterwards. I am just thinking about the temptation. And when I try to redirect my thoughts, the temptation gets stronger and stronger. I want to do good. But I can't.
Yes, I can be loving and nice to people. I can help other people out. But these things don't matter.
The Ten Commandments is a lot harder to obey then I anticipated. Idolatry is more then just worshiping a foreign god made of stone. It is greediness and sexual immorality. Paul said to flee from sexual immorality for that is idolatry. I struggle with lust big time. I don't engage in sexual activity with another person. But I enjoy pornography. This is covetousness, adultery, and idolatry.
Adultery is more then just lusting after someone and having sex with somebody else's spouse. It is desiring things in this world. James called the church adulterous because they were fighting for things that were of this world.
How does one stop being worldly? Am I to give up secular music or give up certain T.V. shows? I have no idea.
I feel bitter and hatred towards other believers for speaking truth. This is murder. When believers are out there speaking against certain sins, it sometimes seem hateful. Now, I know I have no right to judge other people's motives, but sometimes I can't help it. And James said judging other believers is sinful, except in cases where they are living in continuous sinful lifestyle. In which case, I have no right to judge for I have a massive log in my own eye.
In fact, I use this as a reason to not go to church. When in reality, if I am to be honest with myself, I don't go to church because of anxiety and laziness. I would rather stay at home and watch Shameless on Netflix. Although, I don't think not going to church is sin.
Sometimes I feel like giving up. Pray for me.
I am afraid to go to bed at night. I am afraid that if I go to sleep, I will wake up in hell. It scares me so much.
But why doesn't my fear stop me from sinning? I mean, when I am tempted, I forget about how miserable my behavior makes me afterwards. I am just thinking about the temptation. And when I try to redirect my thoughts, the temptation gets stronger and stronger. I want to do good. But I can't.
Yes, I can be loving and nice to people. I can help other people out. But these things don't matter.
The Ten Commandments is a lot harder to obey then I anticipated. Idolatry is more then just worshiping a foreign god made of stone. It is greediness and sexual immorality. Paul said to flee from sexual immorality for that is idolatry. I struggle with lust big time. I don't engage in sexual activity with another person. But I enjoy pornography. This is covetousness, adultery, and idolatry.
Adultery is more then just lusting after someone and having sex with somebody else's spouse. It is desiring things in this world. James called the church adulterous because they were fighting for things that were of this world.
How does one stop being worldly? Am I to give up secular music or give up certain T.V. shows? I have no idea.
I feel bitter and hatred towards other believers for speaking truth. This is murder. When believers are out there speaking against certain sins, it sometimes seem hateful. Now, I know I have no right to judge other people's motives, but sometimes I can't help it. And James said judging other believers is sinful, except in cases where they are living in continuous sinful lifestyle. In which case, I have no right to judge for I have a massive log in my own eye.
In fact, I use this as a reason to not go to church. When in reality, if I am to be honest with myself, I don't go to church because of anxiety and laziness. I would rather stay at home and watch Shameless on Netflix. Although, I don't think not going to church is sin.
Sometimes I feel like giving up. Pray for me.