I know this is long, it is a copy of a pm I sent friend. Please read it and give me some advice. I can't take much more!
weird wayne!
Ok, I know this whole message is going to be negative, and I am sorry. I am just so sick of him. He does absolutley nothing here! He will wake up on a Saturday and the kids will be ustairs screaming, and if I don't hear them and get up, he will let make them stay up there. If on the rare occasion he will let them come down so I can sleep, they have to wait for breakfast until I get up. He never does any housework. I came home from bingo tonight and the garbage can was dumped on the floor. He had to walk aroud it to fix supper, but was too lazy to pick it up. I cannot stand a mess, and my house is disgusting, but I can't ddo it by myself. I bought Madeline and Easter dress and she tried it on, came down to show him and he never said a word. He is not the father that I want my kids to have. I keep praying to God for him to change, and I am starting to lose patience. I know God always does things at the right time, but he has to realize I am about to snap. I keep praying and keep forcing Wayne to go to church, and it never helps. I don't know what to do. I am sorry to vent at you, but I have no one else to talk to not even my Mom. I have tried everything to get him to help. He lays on th ecouch all weekend and watches crap on Tv and makes disgusting comments in front of my kids. Tonight, when I came home he was in the living room with Doug and they were watching some disgusting puppet show on comedy central. I have tried so hard to raise christian children and I feel like he is trying to undo it. When I get mad, he always asks if I have forgotten to take my depression meds. That is such an insult. Well, I will end this, but could go on forever. I just want to tell you that it is very difficult to be married to a non-christian, and to really think and pray hard before you do it. I knew that Wayne was weird before I married him, but thought that i could change him. You cannot change someone only God can and I don't know why he won't. I hate to sound this way, but do you ever feel like God is not listening?
I have forgot to take my Zoloft for a few days and that certainly is not helping. I took it tonight, so hopefully I will get straightened out. I realize though that is just makes me numb to the effects of my weird husband. My kids are not and I wish he would straighten up for there sake. He never just grabs Madeline and higs her. He rarely says anyhting positive to her at all. It makes me very sad for her and I love him but am not at all in love with him. I wish I could afford to leave him, but I know that God says we are not supposed to get divorced. And that would be really hard on the keds esp. Doug. So I guess if God doesn't answer my prayers about this, I will just secretly stay unhappy for their sake. Please pray for us. He does not want to change and gets mad at me for going to church to often. He makes fun of me and says I act old. I am just acting like a parent! I have to be 2 parents because he does nothing! Sorry again but I just needed a friendly ear!
weird wayne!
Ok, I know this whole message is going to be negative, and I am sorry. I am just so sick of him. He does absolutley nothing here! He will wake up on a Saturday and the kids will be ustairs screaming, and if I don't hear them and get up, he will let make them stay up there. If on the rare occasion he will let them come down so I can sleep, they have to wait for breakfast until I get up. He never does any housework. I came home from bingo tonight and the garbage can was dumped on the floor. He had to walk aroud it to fix supper, but was too lazy to pick it up. I cannot stand a mess, and my house is disgusting, but I can't ddo it by myself. I bought Madeline and Easter dress and she tried it on, came down to show him and he never said a word. He is not the father that I want my kids to have. I keep praying to God for him to change, and I am starting to lose patience. I know God always does things at the right time, but he has to realize I am about to snap. I keep praying and keep forcing Wayne to go to church, and it never helps. I don't know what to do. I am sorry to vent at you, but I have no one else to talk to not even my Mom. I have tried everything to get him to help. He lays on th ecouch all weekend and watches crap on Tv and makes disgusting comments in front of my kids. Tonight, when I came home he was in the living room with Doug and they were watching some disgusting puppet show on comedy central. I have tried so hard to raise christian children and I feel like he is trying to undo it. When I get mad, he always asks if I have forgotten to take my depression meds. That is such an insult. Well, I will end this, but could go on forever. I just want to tell you that it is very difficult to be married to a non-christian, and to really think and pray hard before you do it. I knew that Wayne was weird before I married him, but thought that i could change him. You cannot change someone only God can and I don't know why he won't. I hate to sound this way, but do you ever feel like God is not listening?
I have forgot to take my Zoloft for a few days and that certainly is not helping. I took it tonight, so hopefully I will get straightened out. I realize though that is just makes me numb to the effects of my weird husband. My kids are not and I wish he would straighten up for there sake. He never just grabs Madeline and higs her. He rarely says anyhting positive to her at all. It makes me very sad for her and I love him but am not at all in love with him. I wish I could afford to leave him, but I know that God says we are not supposed to get divorced. And that would be really hard on the keds esp. Doug. So I guess if God doesn't answer my prayers about this, I will just secretly stay unhappy for their sake. Please pray for us. He does not want to change and gets mad at me for going to church to often. He makes fun of me and says I act old. I am just acting like a parent! I have to be 2 parents because he does nothing! Sorry again but I just needed a friendly ear!
