Please Pray for me

[tergail]

On November 13 it will have been exactly 1 year since my mother passed away from a heart attack, suddenly. There was no warning, no symptoms, no idea it was a problem. She died peacefully in her sleep. It has been the hardest thing I've had to deal with in my life to this point. My mother lived about 4 hours away so once the funeral was over I went home and have not been back. The idea of going back causes me to start having panic attacks. Now with the anniversary of her death nearing, my family wants us all to go back and visit her grave site for the day. I need to go, and want to go. I need closure (is that possible?) with this and I know it. But again, I feel panicked and feel grief as if it had just happened. I miss her so much. I know she is in a better place. I know she knows only peace now. And as much as that relieves me, I still want her here!
So please pray fro me that I can get through this. That over the next week I will find peace and know that it's ok to go back and I should go back.

 

[HopeSeeker]

Blessed be your mother's memory.

Praying for you.
God Bless.

 

[Zeena]

Praying here too!

 

[Ruth~]

Praying for you. I think if you keep telling yourself it will be okay then it will be but this takes much time, I admit. I lost my father this year and miss him much but I've always told myself that things will get better and eventually they do. Not to say that losing a parent doesn't hurt terribly. Just trying to help you feel better. But we all feel what we feel and there's no taking that away from you.Please pm me if you need someone to listen.

 

[BigC]

I will pray for you, so no worries.

 

[scoutswife]

I am praying for your comfort. May the Lord put His loving arms around you and lead you into a peaceful place.

 

[plmarquette]

On November 13 it will have been exactly 1 year since my mother passed away from a heart attack, suddenly. There was no warning, no symptoms, no idea it was a problem. She died peacefully in her sleep. It has been the hardest thing I've had to deal with in my life to this point. My mother lived about 4 hours away so once the funeral was over I went home and have not been back. The idea of going back causes me to start having panic attacks. Now with the anniversary of her death nearing, my family wants us all to go back and visit her grave site for the day. I need to go, and want to go. I need closure (is that possible?) with this and I know it. But again, I feel panicked and feel grief as if it had just happened. I miss her so much. I know she is in a better place. I know she knows only peace now. And as much as that relieves me, I still want her here!
So please pray fro me that I can get through this. That over the next week I will find peace and know that it's ok to go back and I should go back.

Matthew 19.26 what is impossible for us is possible with Him ...
Philippians 4.13 I can do all with Christ Jesus who strengthens me ..
Father I put this at the foot of the cross , I ask that you take my hand and fix this within me ( Psalm 118.5) that I might go foreward with my life ...

I decide this day to help another person who has lost a loved one , for in comforting others I will be comforted ( Matthew chapter 5 ) .... I decide to witness , share , pray , use my grief as the armor of God ( ephesians 6.10-17) to plunder the kingdom of darkness to populate the kingdom of light ...

to inflict upon hell , death , and grave the lonliness , pain , and fear by the power of God , the name and the blood of Jesus ... that it has inflicted on me ( 2 Timothy 1.7) ..

In some way , each day , I decide to grow , glow , and go ... a bit better and better ..

 

[flaglady]

tergail - how did you get on? And how are you now? I'm sorry I mised this at the time but better late than never.

 

[tergail]

Well, the date came and went and we didn't go up. Things happened that most os us couldn't go so none os us did. But I finally went up 2 weeks ago. My dad has decided to move on with his life and is moving another woman in to his house. So my sister and I had to go and box up all of our mom's things and get them out of the house before the new woman moved in. It was extremely hard. Especially my first visit to the cemetary and then packing up her things was like saying goodbye to her all over again. I know it'll take some time before I go there again. It was just too hard! However, all of her things were divided up between us kids so I have lots of things with me now to remind me of her and keep her presence with me! So all in all, everything turned out ok! Thanks for all the prayers, they are so much appreciated.

 

[flaglady]

I'm so pleased you're managing to move on. It's very tough, coping with a loss like that. No time to say goodbye or be prepared. On the other hand, I've always had a notion that I'd like to go like that. At least she didn't suffer or anything. Something to hang on to, eh? It will get easier as time goes by though you'll never really stop hurting, you just learn to get used to it.

God bless you, hun.

 

[JPPT1974]

I am praying for you as even
Though my mom is alive, I really
Can't fanthom losing her as she means
The world to me!
Like your mom means the world to you.