A man has ocd. His ocd is making the man to ask punishment from God. He told God similar stuff that he would really mean it if he validates it by doing the cross sign 3 times. Months after that, his ocd was telling him that he should pray and do the cross sign outside from a church in neos kosmos, as part of a compulsion.
The guy did it and was on his way but ocd started bugging him and telling him to return and redo the compulsion. he was so frustrated that in a second, some words without his will popped up in his head that he cant remember clearly. They were thoughts without his will about maybe asking punishment from God if he returns to that church in neos kosmos. He cant remember. He only remembers after these thoughts without his will, that he was telling to himself stuff like " better not to return to that church again" by this way, he could use the fear of a punishment as a weapon to ignore his ocd worries that were bugging him to return and redo the compulsion in the church of neos kosmos. he cant remember how strong these thoughts without his will were. he cant remember if they really were 100% without his will. the man can not remember when exactly these thoughts without his will popped up. he worries if these thoughts without his will about a punishment, popped up while he was doing the cross sign outside from the church in neos kosmos. he was doing just the compulsion but in the past, he told God that he would validate promises only if he does the cross sign 3 times. what if the thoughts without his will, popped up while he was doing the cross sign outside from a church in neos kosmos for another reason? he was doing the cross sign outside from a church in neos kosmos as part of the compulsion and not to vaidate a promise. what if a part of himself, under frustration decided to trick ocd by purposely, allowing thoughts without his will to pop up during the cross sign? what if he semi-intentionally validated a promise? he cant remember. the only thing he remembers was after that, he was relieved that he did not have to redo the compulsion but also anxious and thinking stuff like " better never return to that church in neos kosmos again" there is 70% chance that after months, he passed from that church in neos kosmos by taxi, accidentally.
He was trying to remember about what thoughts popped up without his will that day. he could not. he was sad cause his ocd was like
ocd: you maybe got punished for having these thoughts without your will. you should have just ignored ocd but you tried to trick it and that maybe validated a real promise to God because maybe your organism of yours for a second really meant it. and maybe your organism semi-intentionally allowed these thoughts without your will to pop up while you were doing the cross sign outside from a church in neos kosmos, as part of your compulsion. since you told God in the past, that you would validate a promise only if you do the cross sign 3 times. and maybe it counted as a valid promise with punishment if you break it.
That man is [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ed with himself. he is sad because of his ocd and he tries not even to think the word "promise" and now he worries about validating a promise, due to frustrstion?
He was trying to calm himself down, days after the day his taxi ,probably, passed from that church in neos kosmos, and he was thinking stuff like that the thougths without his will abouy punishment or a curse are just thoughts without his will. almost, 3-4 seconds later, he walks into a room with a tv on and hears a woman telling a story, do not know if fictional or not, that an other woman cursed something. by hearing the word curse, the man was like "was that a coincidence?" and the woman continued by telling that the other woman after cursing, asked from God to be turned on stone and He did it. The man freaked cause that reminded him, his ocd worrying about the church in neos kosmos. He started writing about this coincidence in reddit and at one point, he was thinking " was that a coincidence or a sign?" and at that moment, she randomly hears his grandmother telling to his father " they are signs. they cant be cleaned" their were talking about an other subject. the man freaked more. his ocd was like
ocd: maybe a God or the universe is sending you signs since you are overanalyzing these thoughts without your will, to tell you that your thoughts without your will that day, outside from the church neos kosmos, became valid because due to frustrstion, you maybe meant them and maybe that became a real promise that you maybe broke it by passing from that church in neos kosmos ,probably, by taxi. maybe you are punished just because you were fool and could not control your thoughts without your will. maybe they were semi-intentional and you forgot everything about it, because you thought them very fast"
The guy did it and was on his way but ocd started bugging him and telling him to return and redo the compulsion. he was so frustrated that in a second, some words without his will popped up in his head that he cant remember clearly. They were thoughts without his will about maybe asking punishment from God if he returns to that church in neos kosmos. He cant remember. He only remembers after these thoughts without his will, that he was telling to himself stuff like " better not to return to that church again" by this way, he could use the fear of a punishment as a weapon to ignore his ocd worries that were bugging him to return and redo the compulsion in the church of neos kosmos. he cant remember how strong these thoughts without his will were. he cant remember if they really were 100% without his will. the man can not remember when exactly these thoughts without his will popped up. he worries if these thoughts without his will about a punishment, popped up while he was doing the cross sign outside from the church in neos kosmos. he was doing just the compulsion but in the past, he told God that he would validate promises only if he does the cross sign 3 times. what if the thoughts without his will, popped up while he was doing the cross sign outside from a church in neos kosmos for another reason? he was doing the cross sign outside from a church in neos kosmos as part of the compulsion and not to vaidate a promise. what if a part of himself, under frustration decided to trick ocd by purposely, allowing thoughts without his will to pop up during the cross sign? what if he semi-intentionally validated a promise? he cant remember. the only thing he remembers was after that, he was relieved that he did not have to redo the compulsion but also anxious and thinking stuff like " better never return to that church in neos kosmos again" there is 70% chance that after months, he passed from that church in neos kosmos by taxi, accidentally.
He was trying to remember about what thoughts popped up without his will that day. he could not. he was sad cause his ocd was like
ocd: you maybe got punished for having these thoughts without your will. you should have just ignored ocd but you tried to trick it and that maybe validated a real promise to God because maybe your organism of yours for a second really meant it. and maybe your organism semi-intentionally allowed these thoughts without your will to pop up while you were doing the cross sign outside from a church in neos kosmos, as part of your compulsion. since you told God in the past, that you would validate a promise only if you do the cross sign 3 times. and maybe it counted as a valid promise with punishment if you break it.
That man is [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]ed with himself. he is sad because of his ocd and he tries not even to think the word "promise" and now he worries about validating a promise, due to frustrstion?
He was trying to calm himself down, days after the day his taxi ,probably, passed from that church in neos kosmos, and he was thinking stuff like that the thougths without his will abouy punishment or a curse are just thoughts without his will. almost, 3-4 seconds later, he walks into a room with a tv on and hears a woman telling a story, do not know if fictional or not, that an other woman cursed something. by hearing the word curse, the man was like "was that a coincidence?" and the woman continued by telling that the other woman after cursing, asked from God to be turned on stone and He did it. The man freaked cause that reminded him, his ocd worrying about the church in neos kosmos. He started writing about this coincidence in reddit and at one point, he was thinking " was that a coincidence or a sign?" and at that moment, she randomly hears his grandmother telling to his father " they are signs. they cant be cleaned" their were talking about an other subject. the man freaked more. his ocd was like
ocd: maybe a God or the universe is sending you signs since you are overanalyzing these thoughts without your will, to tell you that your thoughts without your will that day, outside from the church neos kosmos, became valid because due to frustrstion, you maybe meant them and maybe that became a real promise that you maybe broke it by passing from that church in neos kosmos ,probably, by taxi. maybe you are punished just because you were fool and could not control your thoughts without your will. maybe they were semi-intentional and you forgot everything about it, because you thought them very fast"
