Please heal me

[Greenriser]

I know life not working out for me, because I'm giving myself the permission to treat myself so badly. I am overpretected here and you havent given me a chnace. You know I'm trying both ends here and aint working! I wanna enjoy life but how can the riddles in my mind have to stop! You made me this way so stop putting me through hell! Why didn't you give me a life outside of slavery! That punishment you gave to my opressor has depressed me. I want you to teach my parents a thing or to please GOd. I gave to you and you brought me even harder, boring situatuations and difficult judgemets! If I venture out alone, what more is there left to do? How do I know you wont slave me! My mind is a mess because I'm still afraid, alone, and scared. When am I going to see the light. Why make a hard decision turn into paranoia. It's boundaries and fun that I need. Why does it feel so alone and so far away. Can you please use my anger for the greater good of the world. Make the verbal words in my mouth a passion. Give a piece of mind to all sinners.

In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, Amen.

 

[Greenriser]

Man, I don't know who to listen to anymore. Like life is an enjoyment just waiting to happen. I know that, I've seen edges of it. Can you guide my compass to the nearest help?

 

[GaelSong]

Hey Green, life isn't all that bad. At least you've found CF and I know there are alot of good Christian people here who really care how you feel. Why don't you start a journal in the journal forum. It could be a good place for you to rant and get things off your chest. Other people can read your entries and pray for you.
Have a good day!

 

[Paisley]

I agree with merri! Start a journal and rant all you need there. That is like therapy for me. I get what is bothering me off of my chest, and then it feels like freedom. You can't keep stuff bottled up inside. Your parents love you dearly, and probably are dealing with problems of their own right now. You need to pray for them, and forgive them. Forgive yourself while you able to...and God listens to that kind of prayer most of all. God bless you and your parents.

Being 18 is a good age! You will see.