Parental abuse effecting my relationship with God

[Heartofsilver]

Hello everyone,

Months ago, I went through a crisis where my abusive family was treating me harshly while I was having psychiatric issues. My dad has become more physically abusive towards my mom and I. He is struggling with a work addiction, sleeping issues, and exhaustion which makes him extremely grumpy as well as possibly raises his blood pressure which I have heard is already high. I have been attending mental health wellness classes where one of the instructors told me that my OCD/rumination can be a terrible theologian.

I have noticed a difference in my relationship with God, since the crisis that I may not be able to completely explain. When I first got out of the crisis situation I was more shook up than I had ever been before. I felt very angry at God for allowing my family to say and do all of the things that they did to me when I was at my most vulnerable. I have moments where I feel like maybe I don't trust God as much as I did before. I also wonder if the way that I see my dad is reflecting and effecting the way that I view my Father God. I have distanced myself from my parents and there are days where I feel like there is a distance between God and I.

One of my mental health wellness instructors told me that my OCD/rumination can be a terrible theologian, which by what he told me turned out to be correct. My OCD/rumination has forced my thinking into having more of a religion rather than a relationship with God. It also forces thoughts of a constant wonder when it comes to asking and living in a way where I keep asking the same question of am I doing good enough for God, salvation, am I living good enough, etc. I wonder if I'm on the path to a healthier, more loving, true, and pure relationship with God that feels more simple rather than strenuous.​

 

[Rescued One]

Hello everyone,

Months ago, I went through a crisis where my abusive family was treating me harshly while I was having psychiatric issues. My dad has become more physically abusive towards my mom and I. He is struggling with a work addiction, sleeping issues, and exhaustion which makes him extremely grumpy as well as possibly raises his blood pressure which I have heard is already high. I have been attending mental health wellness classes where one of the instructors told me that my OCD/rumination can be a terrible theologian.

I have noticed a difference in my relationship with God, since the crisis that I may not be able to completely explain. When I first got out of the crisis situation I was more shook up than I had ever been before. I felt very angry at God for allowing my family to say and do all of the things that they did to me when I was at my most vulnerable. I have moments where I feel like maybe I don't trust God as much as I did before. I also wonder if the way that I see my dad is reflecting and effecting the way that I view my Father God. I have distanced myself from my parents and there are days where I feel like there is a distance between God and I.

One of my mental health wellness instructors told me that my OCD/rumination can be a terrible theologian, which by what he told me turned out to be correct. My OCD/rumination has forced my thinking into having more of a religion rather than a relationship with God. It also forces thoughts of a constant wonder when it comes to asking and living in a way where I keep asking the same question of am I doing good enough for God, salvation, am I living good enough, etc. I wonder if I'm on the path to a healthier, more loving, true, and pure relationship with God that feels more simple rather than strenuous.​

When I compare abuse to God's love and blessing, I recognize that abusive people are under Satan's control. All the more reason for me to follow Christ and associate with people who love and follow Him! God makes us good. He forgives the sins you confess. He helps you overcome that old way of life. Satan doesn't want you to be well and happy. Choose to live for God every day --- He has your back!

 

[Rescued One]

Be encouraged.

 

[Brightmoon]

You need to bottom line about the abuse . Call the cops and have him arrested . Do not feel that you have to make up excuses for the abuser. That’s what’s gets women killed or severely injured.

Even though that is the Buddha he’s still right

 

[eleos1954]

Hello everyone,

Months ago, I went through a crisis where my abusive family was treating me harshly while I was having psychiatric issues. My dad has become more physically abusive towards my mom and I. He is struggling with a work addiction, sleeping issues, and exhaustion which makes him extremely grumpy as well as possibly raises his blood pressure which I have heard is already high. I have been attending mental health wellness classes where one of the instructors told me that my OCD/rumination can be a terrible theologian.

I have noticed a difference in my relationship with God, since the crisis that I may not be able to completely explain. When I first got out of the crisis situation I was more shook up than I had ever been before. I felt very angry at God for allowing my family to say and do all of the things that they did to me when I was at my most vulnerable. I have moments where I feel like maybe I don't trust God as much as I did before. I also wonder if the way that I see my dad is reflecting and effecting the way that I view my Father God. I have distanced myself from my parents and there are days where I feel like there is a distance between God and I.

One of my mental health wellness instructors told me that my OCD/rumination can be a terrible theologian, which by what he told me turned out to be correct. My OCD/rumination has forced my thinking into having more of a religion rather than a relationship with God. It also forces thoughts of a constant wonder when it comes to asking and living in a way where I keep asking the same question of am I doing good enough for God, salvation, am I living good enough, etc. I wonder if I'm on the path to a healthier, more loving, true, and pure relationship with God that feels more simple rather than strenuous.​

First of all .... understand ... none of us are "good enough"

Romans 3
10 As it is written: "There is no one righteous, not even one;

Second ... no one can earn salvation ... it is a gift from God

Ephesians 2
New Living Translation
God saved you by his grace when you believed. And you can’t take credit for this; it is a gift from God.
Romans 10:9-10
9 If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. 10 For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you profess your faith and are saved.

You begin a new way of living with Christ working through you and this continues throughout your lifetime .... and He knows we will mess up occasionally. When you do, ask for forgiveness and know He has forgiven you.

2 Corinthians 5:17

Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creature; the old things passed away; behold, new things have come.

James 1:2-4
Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.

He will complete His work in you.

Philippians 1
Berean Literal Bible
6 being persuaded of this very thing, that the One having begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Christ Jesus.

Be confident in these verses as you study the Lords word.

Study the Lords word and do not be afraid of Him, you have become His child.

Love

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no account of wrongs. 6Love takes no pleasure in evil, but rejoices in the truth. 7It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

and ... God IS love.

May the Lord bless and keep you. Amen.

 

[Johan_1988]

You need to bottom line about the abuse . Call the cops and have him arrested . Do not feel that you have to make up excuses for the abuser. That’s what’s gets women killed or severely injured. View attachment 257933

Even though that is the Buddha he’s still right

I still think it's really inappropriate to show a image of an false god on a Christian forum.

 

[Brightmoon]

Even if the so called false god is telling you the right thing to do? You can be Buddhist and be a Christian FYI

 

[~Zao~]

Even if the so called false god is telling you the right thing to do? You can be Buddhist and be a Christian FYI

Satan mascaurading as an angel of light or any other disguise isn’t going to forward any Christian understanding without pulling two steps back. I don’t agree with throwing the baby out with the bath water because all good things come from the Father. But what comes from false gods is a twist of religion that seeks to entangle and confuse especially new Christians.

 

[~Zao~]

Even if the so called false god is telling you the right thing to do? You can be Buddhist and be a Christian FYI

I used to have a Buddhist priestess for a next door neighbour and we used to compare notes every so often. What I discovered is that her religion led her strait to the laver where she could sit and look at herself and her life. But it never led inside to God.

Not comparable at all since self promotes one and spirit promotes the other. Good luck with being both .. smh ..