Paranoia

[Loopi]

I know that even though my abuser lives a court up from me, its highly unlikely he would ever abuse me again. It's highly unlikely my boyf would ever abuse me, but since he's been away my paranoia has got really bad. Im really paranoid that my boyf may hurt me in some way when he comes back, and that it could lead to what happened when i was younger...even though i know thats ridiculous and have all the trust i can manage in my boyf (trust is a huge issue for me). But its a paranoia i cant shake off.
My other paranoia is now stopping me going out alone, but its now invaded my dreams, creating a cycle where my paranoia has now got worse. Whenever i go out im scared that im being followed by someone who wants to hurt me, im scared of every passer by as i think they want to kill me, im scared of entering a dark room because im scared theres someone in there waiting to hurt me. I know this is totally irrational, but it feels so real.
I havent really told anyone about this in real life because i feel so stupid, but its really starting to get at me, and i know its connected to my abuse...i just wish it wasnt...cus its making me feel like im werid...and alone.

 

[shazabella]

loopi

I am battling those feeling way too much atm as well

- Shaz

 

[Theresasjourney]

I know that even though my abuser lives a court up from me, its highly unlikely he would ever abuse me again. It's highly unlikely my boyf would ever abuse me, but since he's been away my paranoia has got really bad. Im really paranoid that my boyf may hurt me in some way when he comes back, and that it could lead to what happened when i was younger...even though i know thats ridiculous and have all the trust i can manage in my boyf (trust is a huge issue for me). But its a paranoia i cant shake off.
My other paranoia is now stopping me going out alone, but its now invaded my dreams, creating a cycle where my paranoia has now got worse. Whenever i go out im scared that im being followed by someone who wants to hurt me, im scared of every passer by as i think they want to kill me, im scared of entering a dark room because im scared theres someone in there waiting to hurt me. I know this is totally irrational, but it feels so real.
I havent really told anyone about this in real life because i feel so stupid, but its really starting to get at me, and i know its connected to my abuse...i just wish it wasnt...cus its making me feel like im werid...and alone.

I am sorry you are struggling with this...
When this happens to me I try and problem solve worse case senerios..takes some of the anxiety out...and I have anxiety meds that help allot to...you might want to talk to your Dr about it also...
blessings..

 

[luv4godremains]

heya angel, you can always talk to me, about anything! I'm sorry you feel like this, and it's not really irrational, all of our experiences build up to make us who we are, so it would seem perfectly rational that you are struggling with this! I'll be praying for ya angel! hope you feel better soon! God bless, luv ya loads angel! *hugs*

 

[ForgivenToo]

I am so sorry that you are going thru this, i too had problems with trusting people after my abuse. The best thing you can do is give it to God, truly give it to him. Once you put the pain and anger and hurt in His hands you will begin to feel better. He will also give you the strength to forgive those that hurt you and in forgiving them, you will begin to feel better.


I disagree with the medication thing, some people cannot handle medication and become dependent on it. Some medications have sideffects that are worse than the original "problem" Depend on God.

 

[pentecostalgirl0414]

I know how it is to deal with that. I am dealing with that at this very moment. You will be in my prayers!!

 

[NeedHelp11]

maybe this is post traumatic stress. sounds like it could be.

google it and see if you can relate to the symptoms