Once a wanderer. God changed me

[troybionic]

i was once a wanderer. I go to church just to get it over with. It felt like it was a duty, an obligation that I have to go through once a week. I didn't even read the bible. It was always a struggle to wake up every Sunday. It was a relief when my previous job required me to work on Sundays.

But God made a way for me to quit work. For a year, I felt empty. No steady income. I was working freelance jobs.

Last month, a horrendous event changed me. Even though I wasn't a good Christian then, I still had my conscience and I still had a relationship with God through prayers. But what happened a month ago made me depressed, had anxieties, made me think of myself as dirty, immoral, not fit to be a son of God anymore. It was very depressing and heartbreaking for me. I felt guilty and worried. Fear took over me. Thank God for that incident tho. I questioned God why it happened. Why he made me do it. Reading the bible and some Christian books opened my eyes. It was meant to happen for me to change. To not quit on God. I began reading the bible again. I started listening to Christian music again. I believe that when God works in your life, you have to choice. You feel this heat inside you, this burning desire to change, to share your experiences to your Christian friends. It enlightens you. I believe God has a purpose. I now believe that he really works in mysterious ways.

Now I go to church every Sunday feeling excited and happy. I don't even get sleepy anymore or pretend that I'm listening. Because I have this hunger in me to learn more. To know more. To be a better Christian and son of God.

 

[Swan7]

I was once plagued by the same feeling of not being good enough for God, so why try? This bothered me and depressed me for months on end, years even. But every time I tucked it away into the depths of my mind and yet it weighed heavily on me. I looked everywhere of what I could possibly be missing, everywhere but the Bible. His Word. Then I finally asked him what is the honest truth, a very generalized question and not saying anything specific. I certainly got a load of information through documentaries and checking them with scripture. I was getting my answer full blast everyday! I was spiritually overwhelmed and yet hungered ever for more. I still do.

We all have that sensation like He's tugging on our hearts and steer us in the right direction. His Way.

 

[troybionic]

That's so true. Thank you for sharing your experience. Hope we both have a happy and God fearing journey with the Lord

 

[JCFantasy23]

Thank you for sharing your testimony and experience with us. I've also found that some hard trials that are difficult to bear have turned me around in the right direction of where God wants me to be.

 

[troybionic]

Thank u Jc! Thanks for inspiring me as well. Hope u have a great day everyday
God bless

 

[LiberatedByHim]

Wonderful testimony Troy. Our God is truly an awesome God. He always had a plan for you! God bless and carry on

 

[troybionic]

Thank u hehe I'm just glad that u get to appreciate my spiritual journey. More testimonies coming soon. God bless

 

[Jesus' Follower]

Thanks for sharing this great testimony.

 

[NaturalSinner]

Glad you turned to God.