- Jun 13, 2018
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- Country
- United States
- Gender
- Female
- Faith
- Non-Denom
- Marital Status
- Single
In my late 20’s practicing abstinence has really had a key role in my faith-walk by challenging my trust in God and his timing. I am in a bind of not trusting men, but simultaneously trusting God to send a man. It doesn’t quite add up. How can I be ready to receive a blessing that I am having difficulty trusting/ believing in its existence? How can I trust my own judgment and Gods plan? I say this rhetorically and find myself genuinely asking. I’m very open in my prayer life about my desire for a partner, sadness, and reluctance towards that stage. I feel like societies standards and expectations have put a damper on my dating life. From over-sexualized culture, negative stereotypes around black women, intimidation of independent woman who are career driven and academically focused— dating has become disheartening, exhausting and a dread. Observing my parents healthy christ-filled relationship gave me naive and unrealistic expectations on availability of celibate saved men. Now I’ve come to find safety in singleness contrived from fear and disappointment. God knows the desires of my heart, I recognize it’s his timing not mine. I wish that there was accessibility to men I felt compatible with rather than a growing list of those who add to my doubt. I wouldn’t mind being sought, but I am not looking. I’m hoping to one day look forward to the possibility again. So for the men out there who value purity and Christ centered relationships please remain true to yourself and never give up or compromise your commitment to yourself and God. I beg you, as someone who has contemplated settling, losing hope, and giving up-know that the decisions you make today impact the choices you will have tomorrow in a future spouse. Men who value abstinence/celibacy please speak up and be proud of your choice because everyone else gets to be outspoken, why can’t we? - #worththewait #blessedsingle
