Hi JJJ , and all ,
I recommend Dr. Jesus ,
What he can't cure us of , he'll kill us for !
Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him... <-----> Job 13:15
And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. <-----> Romans 8:28
Giving thanks always for all things unto God and the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ . <-----> Ephesians 5:20
First of all , stop dreading your condition and thank God for it !
Trusting that , in God's great and wondrous plan , this thing is designed to work for your good !
There's something lacking in your spiritual walk with Christ .
This persistent paranoia is there to motivate you to search and seek and pray and fast , and study and meditate on the Word , until your lacking is abolished .
Many people are seriously lacking spiritually , and some have these kinds of pronounced indicators , that something is truly wrong .
Those who lack such indicators , or who succeed in nullifying them , while their spiritual impoverishment continues , are the worst off - not those of us who have undeniable evidence of some crucial spiritual need , and are thereby compelled to diligently seek the Lord's remedy .
Our faith must be strenthened . Specifically our faith in God's love , as was demonstrated through Christ , especially the blood of Jesus being shed for you and me , and every other sinful human being who ever lived , or is living , or will live .
So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God. <-----> Romans 10:17
Immerse yourself into the Word of God , I strongly recommend The Authorized King James Version ; Strong's Exhaustive Concordance - with Hebrew and Greek Dictionaries ; and a comprehensive English Dictionary .
( These can be found online ) But a copy on paper has advantages . [ Simple and independent ] .
Every time you have trouble sleeping , use that time to prayerfully study Scripture . The more trouble you have sleeping , the better you'll Know first hand what The Holy Bible says . This will turn a negative into a positive . At which point , if Satan is behind your paranoia ( which he most likely is ) he'll have to change his stategy against you , if the Word in you doesn't drive him into the desert places first .
Once , when the same type of thing was happening to me , I prayed for The Lord's help , and suddenly , it dawned on me , crystal clear , that if " it " , ( what ever it was that was seeking to terrify me ) , was going to " get " me - it would have gotten me already , after the first hour or so . And therefore , I resigned myself to not worrying over something which could only suggest fear of danger , while posing no actual threat , other than to make one feel fear .
You see , the threat , that it's going to get me , was all it could get me with .
And once I understood that , it wasn't so fearful , and my spirit was given immunity to it's trickery .
Fear them not therefore: for there is nothing covered, that shall not be revealed; and hid, that shall not be known.
What I tell you in darkness, that speak ye in light: and what ye hear in the ear, that preach ye upon the housetops.
And fear not them which kill the body, but are not able to kill the soul: but rather fear him which is able to destroy both soul and body in hell.
Are not two sparrows sold for a farthing? and one of them shall not fall on the ground without your Father.
But the very hairs of your head are all numbered.
Fear ye not therefore, ye are of more value than many sparrows. <-----> Matthew 10:26-31
Fear not, little flock; for it is your Father's good pleasure to give you the kingdom. <-----> Luke 12:32
What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us? He that spared not his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things? <-----> Romans 8:31+32
According as his divine power hath given unto us all things that pertain unto life and godliness, through the knowledge of him that hath called us to glory and virtue . <-----> 2nd Peter 1:3
Another time , when I was in dire need of The Lord's assistance , he spoke and said , " my help comes through my Word " , and I was convicted that I hadn't been studying as I should ... But after repenting of this apathy and only reading for a few minutes , out from the pages leapt a powerful healing influence , and a literal ongoing threat to my physical life was removed ; and my spiritual state was all the better for having gone through it , in such a way , as to seek and call upon Jesus , for my deliverance . Such experiences build up our relationship with our beloved Saviour .
Wherefore lift up the hands which hang down, and the feeble knees;
And make straight paths for your feet, lest that which is lame be turned out of the way; but let it rather be healed. <-----> Hebrews 12:12+13
For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.<-----> Romans 10:13
For the kingdom of God is not in word, but in power. <-----> 1st Corinthians 4:20
Now the Lord of peace himself give you peace always by all means. <-----> 2nd Thessalonians 3:16
Faithful is he that calleth you, who also will do it. <-----> 1st Thessalonians 5:24
Remember to heed Christ's counsel , and it shall be well with your soul .
In Jesus Name .
Amen .
wm