"Oh, Mama...It's Mia" *WARNING trigger content*

[Nan1]

This is something that I have recently written. I don't claim to be a poet, but it sums it up well enough. I really wanted to share in here because I felt it was the thing to do...Be blessed.

When life’s tides turn turbulent

And change is in the wind

With the odds stacked against me

In a game I’ll never win

My thoughts turn to a time

Not so long ago

When the mirror’s reflection

Was a constant foe



Oh mama

It’s Ana

The greatest game in town

All the girls go mad

To make their weight go down



Only sweet sixteen

It’s not a crime you see

To watch your calories

Or wake up at four

To exercise some more



We push ourselves to make the grade

No matter what the price we pay

It’s all for you

Can’t you see

I need you to be proud of me



Oh mama

It’s Mia

She’s knockin’ on my door

It’s time to be the porcelain queen

Robes of shame and secrecy

Spill along the floor



Oh mama

It’s Mia

Tell her I’m not home

I brushed my teeth

And gargled clean

My insides betray a moan


To find the words to speak

That will make some sense

To carry on this insanity

Convinced I am

I’ll never be

The perfect girl of twenty-three


Oh mama

It’s Mia

Make her go away



She brought a friend

To play with me

Who never falls astray

She stuffs me full of endless feasts

To fill the empty core

And when I say

No more please

She starts to give me more



Oh mama

It’s Mia

She’s banging once again

I’ve struggled through the years

Many stained with hidden tears

I’m too old to pretend

This time I need to pray

Jesus will keep me

On the mend

I don’t want my baby boy

To spy my secret sin



Oh mama

There are times I still grapple

With the madness from within

To look at me now

In middle age

I’m anything but thin



So I lay me down to sleep

I pray the Lord my soul to keep

That should I break before the day

The promise that I truly made

To cast my cares upon His feet

To trust in Him

With all my deeds

The daily cross that I bear

Is one that I’ve shared

I’m not alone

He carried me

Washed me clean

Up there on Calvary



Oh mama

Tell Mia

I don’t live here anymore

I’ve gone to a place

Where I have been restored



So when life’s tides turn turbulent

And change is in the wind

With the odds stacked against me

In a game I’ll never win

I put my strength in Jesus

My Savior

My Groom

My Friend



8/05

 

[blessedmomof5]

well thats what it did to me......
beautifully writtten,,,

 

[luv4godremains]

I totaly agree, it is soo well written, the tears it brings out, the emotions it stirs inside! thank you for sharing it here! God bless

 

[Nan1]

Thank you both so much! It meant a lot to me. Very big step to post in here. Y'all have the courage to post, so I gave it a go. I knew the *warning* would scare off a lot of ppl from reading, and tried not to be too graphic. Thanks for sharing your thoughts.

 

[PureGrace]

That's fabulous. Every word of it is so true. Wow.

Kate

 

[Music4Hym777]

I really liked it, it brings out the pain that is an eating disorder and the stuff each and every one of us struggle with.

 

[AutumnAnne]

thank you

 

[Soulwings]

Wow s
That is an amazing poem... so true, and written from the heart.
Thanks for sharing.

 

[~Nikki~]

Fantastic poem!!!

 

[dwind]

It's rare to see the truth so poetic. Well done

 

[Nan1]

Thank you all for your kind responses....and to think I almost didn't post it.
It took a dear CF friend to convince me it would minister to others. Praise God for Him making lemonade outta life's lemons.

 

[EbonNelumbo]

...and I thought I only struggled with ana like that...it's a beautiful poem, well writen, great.

 

[godisgr8]

That was amazing, you made me cry. That was beautiful and so true.

 

[amtvball4jesus]

good poem and i can definately relate!

 

[Nan1]

I'm glad this poem speaks to others. May it help in your healing journey.

Be blessed,
Nan

 

[CoolMom6]

Thank you, Nan, and bless all of you younger ones.

I am not so young anymore, but those memories are clear now. There was a time when I "forgot" all of those years in order to survive mentally. Now, like Nan, I have completely given it to Christ. He is the only one big enough and strong enough to carry that burden. I, too, did not want to pass that on to my children.

Love to you all;
CM4

 

[Kirley]

that poem is so beautiful and soo tru.. many people can realate to it in sum way or another...including myself and i'm sure many people that do not understand ed's can get sumthing outta that.

 

[ChildOfGod15]

Fabulous.

Wonderful.

Awesome.

Great!!

I liked it.

 

[Nan1]

Fabulous.

Wonderful.

Awesome.

Great!!

I liked it.

Thanks for all your praise! May the glory go to God. Be blessed.

Nan

 

[shezshy]

cuts me to the bone but it's real and I liked this.