Odd blasphemy problem

[Hello There]

This is a little hard to explain.
This is an example of what happens to me.

For eg. I wear the colour black, I fear that if I wear the colour black then I will be blaspheming the Holy Spirit. I'm 99.99% that it is not the case, but in the deepest depths of my mind there is this sand particle of doubt and of course I'm not satisfied with that 00.01% of doubt because I think that doing something that you doubt is a sin is basically commiting the sin anyway.

So the maths is, if I wear black I think I will be blaspheming the Holy Spirit even though I am 99.9% sure that's not the case.

This sort of thing happens all day, it's frightening to think you can blaspheme the Holy Spirit by doing simple odd things.

 

[seajoy]

This is a little hard to explain.
This is an example of what happens to me.

For eg. I wear the colour black, I fear that if I wear the colour black then I will be blaspheming the Holy Spirit. I'm 99.99% that it is not the case, but in the deepest depths of my mind there is this sand particle of doubt and of course I'm not satisfied with that 00.01% of doubt because I think that doing something that you doubt is a sin is basically commiting the sin anyway.

So the maths is, if I wear black I think I will be blaspheming the Holy Spirit even though I am 99.9% sure that's not the case.

This sort of thing happens all day, it's frightening to think you can blaspheme the Holy Spirit by doing simple odd things.

Sorry you are having these thoughts about your clothing.
Have you been diagnosed with OCD? Do you see a psychiatrist for therapy? The reason I ask, is that you would benefit greatly from therapy.
When you do wear black, and you have that thought about blasphemy, just say...."oh well, that's the way it goes." And go on with your day. Not easy....I so understand.
Reassuring yourself that you are 99% sure you aren't doing this, does not help you feel better for very long, does it? That's because reassurance makes the OCD circle continue.

God be with you, dear one.
seajoy

 

[polishmanmike]

hey man
look here, let not Satan lie to you any longer
how can you blashpeme the HOly Spirit if you care so mucjh not to do it? what I mean is if u have commited it liek the guys in the Bible who told JEsus that He uses devils powers to cast out demons, they just blabed it out. More importantly its not like they were calling the Holy Spirit names..... they said that what in fact was the Holy Spirit healing and setting free they called that awesome power of God....the devil, if they didnt believe in Jesus, if they didnt believe in the HOly Spirit nor the Power of God......they were nog Christ's anyways. ITs kind of like smoking at the death row sentence. Will smoking kill you? well yeah but you are gonna be sentenced to death. It is very sad for me to say but they rejected Christ, everything He stood for and the Great Holy Spirit, they blasphemed, they were not forgiven......do you see where I am getting at. YOu will not believe how many times my thoughts called Holy Spirit something, which Holy SPirit in me put it to the end, I put it to obediance to Christ, I rebuked it in His name, its not of GOd therefore treat it like not of God.
Dude wear black, dont let the devil lie to you, limit you. God gave us freedom, HE is the LORD not you, so stop trying to be. We all try to stop our thoughts by doing things where we dont relize that untill we put Him in TOTALL control (not just some) of our lifes, we cant stop it forever. Then what hell? no, just another call from God.....surrender everything to me, sell everything to buy the pearl (parrable about the pearl and the kingdom of God)
Life is good but only when u put Him in control.
I hope all goes well for you, I love black color i like to wear it, dont give satan any moire ground.....we are to fight our fight of faith, take ground! WEAR BLACK UNDERWARE!!! if u think im kidding, i m not

love ya guys
in Christ
Mike

 

[Hello There]

Have you been diagnosed with OCD?

Self-Diagnosed, I think it's pretty obvious, I used to have those number problems where something bad will happen if I come in contact with certain number, fear of germs etc etc

I've taken an online OCD test for what it's worth and I scored quite high.

Reassuring yourself that you are 99% sure you aren't doing this, does not help you feel better for very long, does it? That's because reassurance makes the OCD circle continue.

There's a circle alright, reassurance alot of the time doesn't help. I've got to learn to ignore the OCD but it's hard to stop because I think by doing so it's blasphemy in itself...where does this end?!

I still worry that even if I go against my OCD and thinking I'm committing blasphemy even though it isn't blasphemy is just as worse as committing it for real.

 

[Hello There]

Edit: Accidental post

 

[seajoy]

I hope all goes well for you, I love black color i like to wear it, dont give satan any moire ground.....we are to fight our fight of faith, take ground! WEAR BLACK UNDERWARE!!! if u think im kidding, i m not

love ya guys
in Christ
Mike

Mike's right on! That's how you get rid of these thoughts!

 

[Hello There]

Thanks for your support, unfortunetly the problem I mentioned is only 1 of many problems. Most of the problems with OCD are to do with blasphemy/rejection of the Holy Spirit.

I feel so guilty and sick inside, I feel like I have repeatedly rejected, blasphemed, taken for granted and plain disrespected the Holy Spirit over the past few months. I'm finding it really hard to shake my OCD problem.

Sometimes I stress that I have blasphemed then the idea pops up in my mind that I need to give up something very important in my life to be forgiven for this sin of blasphemy, now I know in my heart that's not necessary but I worry that if I don't give up something important then I'm being selfish and putting something earthly before God.

It's very hard to ignore the OCD and press on...

lol, it's very difficult trying to keep a post short and describe what happens with my OCD at the same time.

Thanks for reading
it's great to get it out there.

 

[marcb]

Hello There.

It's great to "get it out there, isn't it." I found that the more I "put it out there," the less power "it" had. When the battle all stays in your head, you go through it alone and keep trying to solve something that is irrational and therefore does not have a solution.

I pray that you continue to put it out there. On paper, or out loud to God, or out loud to a trusted friend. I used to type or write my prayers when the "blasphemometer" was sky high. I found that very helpful.

Also, be open to the idea that despite all this, God is at work delivering you and peeling away a layer of your thinking that does not belong in your faith -- perhaps a layer that borders on the superstitious. May you see God's great and unchaning love for you as you struggle.

 

[Hello There]

It's great to "get it out there, isn't it." I found that the more I "put it out there," the less power "it" had. When the battle all stays in your head, you go through it alone and keep trying to solve something that is irrational and therefore does not have a solution.

You're absolutely right, I should do it more often, it doesn't matter that much if people don't read, just as long as I think someone's reading it makes me feel better already.

Maybe a blog is a smart idea.

I pray that you continue to put it out there. On paper, or out loud to God, or out loud to a trusted friend. I used to type or write my prayers when the "blasphemometer" was sky high. I found that very helpful.

Very hard to get it out to a friend, it takes the right sort of friend to be able to do that.

Also, be open to the idea that despite all this, God is at work delivering you and peeling away a layer of your thinking that does not belong in your faith -- perhaps a layer that borders on the superstitious. May you see God's great and unchaning love for you as you struggle.

It's very hard to think positively like that when alot of my thoughts are blasphemy...think positively is something I should do more often.

Thank you MarcB

 

[Kazkoss]

I would like to encourage you, as other members have done, to keep 'putting it out there' and also to read the other threads on this site. Things that people have written are very valuable and helpful.
Also, I don't know if you have considered medication but I have found that medication seems to help a bit. Better than that, I encourage you to pray about it and get others to pray. God will give you a break through if you seek Him. I know how hard it is to pray when you have all these thoughts going through your head but it is vital. God hears your heart. As someone said already, maybe you could write your prayers down. Say to God 'these thoughts that I'm having are not from my heart, they are not an accurate representation of the way I feel about You or the way I think, please ignore them, here is my real prayer' and write it out.
Pray for healing from OCD and perhaps deliverance from demonic activity.
Get some strong Christians to counsel and pray with you.
Hope this helps.