ocd generates thoughts without my will about punishments in case I do something I want and the thoughts are without my will.
a part of me, generates thoughts without my will about punishments, in order to force me to do what I want. I get relieved because I can use that as an excuse to do what I want and feel calm. later, ocd does not allowe me not to do or to do what ocd was telling me in the first place. at that moment, I want to do it because it is not ocd related, but something I want to do for other reasons and due to the thoughts without my will that relieved me, ocd says that maybe a punishment will happen if you do the action of the compulsion. just because I got relieved from the thoughts without my will that popped up.
I worry if I get in a car crash just becase these thoughts without my will relieve me because I use them to do what I want or to get out of a dilemma.
it is maybe like making a fake promise without my will to God. just to trick ocd. I have told God that I do not do it on purpose but a part of me does it, in a second, and they affect my thinking.
the motive behind all of these, is relief from ocd. I worry so much about promises and punishments that I try to forget them and similar words. I try not to think them. I am not allowing my mind to think the word promise. I worry a lot.
ocd is like
ocd: you play the game of ocd and play with your thoughts. some maybe are semi-intentional and are now valid cause you use them as an excuse. you act like they are ocd but maybe they are with your will since they are semi-intentional. maybe you pretend is ocd to force yourself out of a dilemma. maybe you will be in a car accident just because the semi-intentional thoughts of yours popped up without your will. the words car accident popped up. maybe there is no Jesus. maybe there is a higher power or the universe who does not care about ocd and make the thoughts valid.
a part of me, without my will, for a second, knows that some thoughts without my will are going to pop up and that they will relieve me by forcing me out of a dilemma. I can ignore them. but I do not know why, I just cant. that part of me, without my will, may seem like it allows the thoughts or waits for the thoughts or forces the thoughts without my will about promises and punishments to pop up. I can still ignore them. but that part of me, maybe carefree, just acts as if they matter. and I feel relieved, but they are without my will. I can not remember what my heart does at that moments and I cant confirm if it is 100% ocd or not. I worry so much. is there any chance that I will be in a car accident? if you do not understand what I am saying just ask me. I am not good with English. my English is bad . my English is bad. English . my English are bad so feel free to ask me if you do not understand
a part of me, generates thoughts without my will about punishments, in order to force me to do what I want. I get relieved because I can use that as an excuse to do what I want and feel calm. later, ocd does not allowe me not to do or to do what ocd was telling me in the first place. at that moment, I want to do it because it is not ocd related, but something I want to do for other reasons and due to the thoughts without my will that relieved me, ocd says that maybe a punishment will happen if you do the action of the compulsion. just because I got relieved from the thoughts without my will that popped up.
I worry if I get in a car crash just becase these thoughts without my will relieve me because I use them to do what I want or to get out of a dilemma.
it is maybe like making a fake promise without my will to God. just to trick ocd. I have told God that I do not do it on purpose but a part of me does it, in a second, and they affect my thinking.
the motive behind all of these, is relief from ocd. I worry so much about promises and punishments that I try to forget them and similar words. I try not to think them. I am not allowing my mind to think the word promise. I worry a lot.
ocd is like
ocd: you play the game of ocd and play with your thoughts. some maybe are semi-intentional and are now valid cause you use them as an excuse. you act like they are ocd but maybe they are with your will since they are semi-intentional. maybe you pretend is ocd to force yourself out of a dilemma. maybe you will be in a car accident just because the semi-intentional thoughts of yours popped up without your will. the words car accident popped up. maybe there is no Jesus. maybe there is a higher power or the universe who does not care about ocd and make the thoughts valid.
a part of me, without my will, for a second, knows that some thoughts without my will are going to pop up and that they will relieve me by forcing me out of a dilemma. I can ignore them. but I do not know why, I just cant. that part of me, without my will, may seem like it allows the thoughts or waits for the thoughts or forces the thoughts without my will about promises and punishments to pop up. I can still ignore them. but that part of me, maybe carefree, just acts as if they matter. and I feel relieved, but they are without my will. I can not remember what my heart does at that moments and I cant confirm if it is 100% ocd or not. I worry so much. is there any chance that I will be in a car accident? if you do not understand what I am saying just ask me. I am not good with English. my English is bad . my English is bad. English . my English are bad so feel free to ask me if you do not understand
