OCD (Intrusive thoughts)- Anxiety- Panic Attacks

[Grounded]

Hello, I am new to the forums. I was talking to my Aunt who had suggested that I search out a good Christian forums for my current issues because I would feel much more comfortable with it.
My story:
I have had anxiety, panic attacks, and ocd since I can remember but as a child I didn't know that is what it was making me feel certain ways about things but as I got older and they have intensified I have been to doctors and also did some research myself and have finally been diagnosed. I have been on and off with severe symptoms mainly after I got pregnant with my second child since then they have never really left me. I've been through times where I would go years with just the regular GAD which it interfered with my life in some aspect but not like it has when I get it severly. I've had 4-5 times in my life where it has really gotten me down and I've had to go on medication for it (but I always quit when I think I am better). I am currently in that right now with the severe symptoms and just recently went back on medication for it (8 days now). But besides the medication which I'm sure isn't working yet, I have been praying, and praying a lot for some relief and some guidance to work through this and when I thought I just wasn't getting an answer I realized that this may just be an answer, he is drawing me closer to him and showing me things that I never realized before, but at the same time I am suffering so much, and I am scared I think the worst part is the OCD (intrusive thoughts about things that just are not me to think about or things that I would never feel that way).. It's bothering me so much that it's giving me panic attacks daily or every other day. I know they say it takes a while for meds to work but I'm praying things will get better soon, and I would also like to ask everyone here to say a prayer for me also because I know that the power of prayer is very strong. Not sure what else to add right now as my mind is always so scattered.
Thank you so much for listening.

 

[Grounded]

Also, to add to this was something I was unsure of. I was so apprehensive about taking medicine for it because would that not mean that I am not putting my 100% faith in the lord to help me get better? There are still so many things I am unsure of and I am wanting to learn everything I can.

 

[EzekielsWheels]

I pray for peace over you mind in the name of Christ. Here is a prayer I wrote recently to address issues of the mind if you are interested: Prayer For The Mind | Christian Forums.

 

[EzekielsWheels]

Also, to add to this was something I was unsure of. I was so apprehensive about taking medicine for it because would that not mean that I am not putting my 100% faith in the lord to help me get better? There are still so many things I am unsure of and I am wanting to learn everything I can.

I believe until we get to perfection there will always be uncertainty about what course if the correct one. We're human and we need to forgive ourselves if we don't make the perfect choice or if things don't go the way we planned. Have you thought about seeing a Christian counselor for your concerns? There might be something from childhood that's driving this (if you're saying it started there and you don't remember what it was) but I'm not a psychologist so take it for what it's worth. There's a book called "The Transformation of the Inner Man" by John and Paul Sandford that I've found helpful if you're interested in checking it out.

 

[Grounded]

I pray for peace over you mind in the name of Christ. Here is a prayer I wrote recently to address issues of the mind if you are interested: Prayer For The Mind | Christian Forums.

Thank you so much for that, it is perfect.