OCD about going against God

[Scared but trusting God]

My mind has been telling me that everything I do is worshipping the devil. I know these things aren’t even bad too. I keep trying to tell myself this isn’t true. I’m scared that I was fine with worshipping the devil and tried to justify it as long as I can do the thing. I think I was trying to view it as sin in stead of worshipping the devil and I told myself that worshipping the devil is a sin. I’m analyzing this thought trying to see what I meant by it. I feel so afraid and condemned and I feel like I won’t be able to do anything. Someone please help!

 

[Cormack]

Hi @Scared but trusting God. My advice may seem a bit unhelpful but here it is, it’s important to not analysis your thoughts as much as you do. I know that’s difficult, but you should try to avoid them.

You’re not your thoughts, and getting caught in a loop where you condemn yourself can be very harmful.

Your thoughts come and go, but it’s not you. You’re loved by a perfect God who couldn’t want any harm on you.

Please try and cultivate healthy habits to avoid going into your own head as much.

I don’t want to be boring a list a lot of hobbies, I’m sure you understand.

 

[Sabertooth]

@Scared but trusting God,
Do you have a psychiatrist?
Are you going to a church that is good at dealing with mental illness?

(You have to confront the OCD head-on, if you are ever to be free of it.)

 

[Tolworth John]

My mind has been telling me that everything I do is worshipping the devil

The basic advice is see your psychiatrist.

otherwise it is follow self help advice from medical sites like:-

International OCD Foundation | 25 Tips for Succeeding in Your OCD Treatment

But if you won't follow advice there is little we can do.

look up the 25 tips and start following the advice in points 4+5.

 

[Tolworth John]

You have to confront the OCD head-on

up to this peace of advice what you said was good.

look up 25 tips etc and read points 4+5, they are directly contrary to your advice.

 

[Sabertooth]

up to this peace of advice what you said was good.

look up 25 tips etc and read points 4+5, they are directly contrary to your advice.

(By "confronting one's OCD head-on," I mean get a psychiatrist & go to an effective church...)

 

[Tolworth John]

(By "confronting one's OCD head-on," I mean get a psychiatrist & go to an effective church...)

I read and understood it, as most ocd suffers would understand it to mean.
That one has to confront it in one's head, argue, debate, try to suppress intrusive thoughts, all the sort of things that make ocd worse.

 

[Mari17]

My mind has been telling me that everything I do is worshipping the devil. I know these things aren’t even bad too. I keep trying to tell myself this isn’t true. I’m scared that I was fine with worshipping the devil and tried to justify it as long as I can do the thing. I think I was trying to view it as sin in stead of worshipping the devil and I told myself that worshipping the devil is a sin. I’m analyzing this thought trying to see what I meant by it. I feel so afraid and condemned and I feel like I won’t be able to do anything. Someone please help!

I understand! I've had a similar obsession before. It feels scary, but thankfully it can be treated in the same way as any other obsession. What are you currently doing to treat or deal with your OCD?