Obsessions about accidentally saying a bad thought.

[jc9992]

I for instance have thought many times that i might have blasphemed the Holy Spirit by accidentally saying a blasphemous thought.

This has happened to me several times when i get my compulsions mixed up and i think i said something offensive against God or the Holy Ghost.For example there have been times when i thought i called the Holy Ghost satan because i wasnt paying attention to my compulsions.I did that again today and have done it several times.Now i want to make it clear that im not 100% sure i said these things but my OCD and not remembering kinda makes me wonder.

My question is how can i know that God will forgive for this?, how can i know if i actually said what i fear i said?

 

[Yotsuba]

Even if you really did think those things, you don't mean it. Even if you think you mean it, you don't.

It's just the OCD. God knows the heart of every believer, and he knows that you don't mean these things. He understands how OCD can be.

I sometimes struggle with blasphemous thoughts, too. It's gotten a lot better, though.

In my opinion, I don't really think it's a sin... because these thoughts aren't coming from you and you don't mean them. You're trying to fight them, there is no way that these are your own thoughts.

But lol even I have a hard time accepting that as I still ask forgiveness for my thoughts sometimes. lol sorry I'm very confusing but even if it is a sin, God will forgives these OCD things... I'm sure of it.

 

[jc9992]

Im not worried about whether or not OCD is a sin.Im worried about times that i might have accidentally said a bad thought on accident,how do i know God has forgiven or that i didnt really say anything.

 

[Yotsuba]

Sorry, I suck at explaining things. n_n''

But my point was that unwanted thoughts aren't sins and therefore don't require forgiveness.

And 'saying' a thought isn't the same as meaning it. The fact that these thoughts are unwanted and you wouldn't willingly say it on your own... just goes to show that you don't mean it. It doesn't matter if you really did say it or not, because that's just a symptom of the OCD.

"God understands it all. And the thing is - and this is going to seem absurd - it doesn't matter if you've thought those thoughts before. It doesn't matter, because it's from OCD. Trying to figure out whether or not you actually might have said it or if you had the intention or belief behind blasphemy or not really IS futile, because it's all a product of your OCD. Even if you decide that no, you didn't commit blasphemy, your OCD will still come back and say "but what about that one time...." and make you doubt. So make an effort not to entertain those thoughts anymore. That's HARD! And it seems nearly impossible at times because as OCD'ers, we naturally want to obsess!" - Post-it (from the Stuck in a Doorway forums)

I guess I'm just trying to say that worrying over whether you said it or not, or whether God will forgive you is just fueling the OCD. So, try not to worry about it. God understands and he forgives all sins, so it's all g.

 

[jc9992]

I understand and yes there a about a 100 times i could pick where i might have "crossed the line", but i just want to know for sure that God has forgiven me, or at least that i didnt say or think what i think said instead of thinking i said or thought what I didnt.I think. lol