If you search my posts on the forums you will see that I've been doing poorly. Today I come here hopefully as my last post, because I am simply not getting bettter.
Three days ago, I woke up. The very moment I tried to move my head I had severe pain in my neck. I could not move my head without pain, period. The pain made me so nautious and confused, I was able to make it to the bathroom. My parents have never heard me scream so loud and painfully in their lives. My chin was over my right shoulder very far, and I couldn't move my head/neck, at all without severe pain and screaming.
My father called 911 and by the time they got here I had settled myself down, and had a little movement. I told them to go, and I would wait it out, so they did. The pain was never gone, and my movement became limited. For the past several days I have however seen a chiropractor and my neck has been getting better.
I have been dealing with intense headaches that made me want to put a drill bit through my skull to relieve the pressure. Screaming, pain that went from the back of my neck to my left eye drawing a line.
I have been dealing with low body temperatures, confusion, possibly untreated shock.
As my neck gets better I feel sickly. My insides hurt, like organs are failing. I've always had this pain here and there, and I've always felt like my body is failing.
I can't live like this. Even when I get better, I still have to deal with my suicidal, depressed, lonely self.
I have one thing. That's God. I don't have friends, very little family involvement, no health insurance, no will. I have God. I talk to God. I do not believe in God, I know God.
Today I am asking for prayer. Prayer for rest. My body, is exhausted and failing. My soul, is worn, beaten, bruised, tested, and tired. My mind is partially disconnected from my body, and my mental state is decreasing.
Today I am asking for rest, whatever that means I don't know. I know what kind of rest I want, but it's up to God what I need. I haven't prayed much as of late, only in immediate request for relief from the pain that I believe has caused me to go into possible shock at least twice, to which God has given me relief.
But today I kindly ask for prayer, because there has to be an end. And in my either exhausted inability, or lack of will to pray, this is why I have came here.
I don't necessarily call myself Christan, but I know that many believe that prayer in numbers is powerful. I'm not asking for pity, I'm not asking for attention, I am asking for rest.
Three days ago, I woke up. The very moment I tried to move my head I had severe pain in my neck. I could not move my head without pain, period. The pain made me so nautious and confused, I was able to make it to the bathroom. My parents have never heard me scream so loud and painfully in their lives. My chin was over my right shoulder very far, and I couldn't move my head/neck, at all without severe pain and screaming.
My father called 911 and by the time they got here I had settled myself down, and had a little movement. I told them to go, and I would wait it out, so they did. The pain was never gone, and my movement became limited. For the past several days I have however seen a chiropractor and my neck has been getting better.
I have been dealing with intense headaches that made me want to put a drill bit through my skull to relieve the pressure. Screaming, pain that went from the back of my neck to my left eye drawing a line.
I have been dealing with low body temperatures, confusion, possibly untreated shock.
As my neck gets better I feel sickly. My insides hurt, like organs are failing. I've always had this pain here and there, and I've always felt like my body is failing.
I can't live like this. Even when I get better, I still have to deal with my suicidal, depressed, lonely self.
I have one thing. That's God. I don't have friends, very little family involvement, no health insurance, no will. I have God. I talk to God. I do not believe in God, I know God.
Today I am asking for prayer. Prayer for rest. My body, is exhausted and failing. My soul, is worn, beaten, bruised, tested, and tired. My mind is partially disconnected from my body, and my mental state is decreasing.
Today I am asking for rest, whatever that means I don't know. I know what kind of rest I want, but it's up to God what I need. I haven't prayed much as of late, only in immediate request for relief from the pain that I believe has caused me to go into possible shock at least twice, to which God has given me relief.
But today I kindly ask for prayer, because there has to be an end. And in my either exhausted inability, or lack of will to pray, this is why I have came here.
I don't necessarily call myself Christan, but I know that many believe that prayer in numbers is powerful. I'm not asking for pity, I'm not asking for attention, I am asking for rest.
