i go through periods where i'm not on cf, but, i'm back. and i'm not doing too well. my sister megan has been avoiding me for the past month and i have no clue why. i've talked to her, i've written to her, nothing works. its making me feel so so much like cutting... and i get to go to oregon to visit jacq and kali (my sister and friend,r espectively) but now they're telling me i can't come if i cut again. well, i have, and i feel so bad for lying to them and its just like, ah! maybe i'll tell them fter oregon... pray for me, i might be ni trouble at work.