Not Doing Well

[DLX]

Hi Everyone,

Wel a week ago, my Psychiatrist thought that I had been doing well and decided to decrease my antidepressant. The big goal is to have me solely on the mood stabilizer. I started to feel sick last week, but thought it was just the flu that I had. Now things are horrible. I have been thinking about hurting myself. I can't sleep. I can't eat. I am having constant anxiety attacks. My Dr has put me back on my regular dose of medication plus an extra one for the sleeplessness and anxiety.

My husband hasn't been that supportive. Like today - he said that I needed to stop playing games. Normally he is really good. I don't know why he would say something like that.

I have had some help in with the girls. So that is good. I am hoping to be feeling better by Monday. I will see my Dr then.

Anyway I appreciate your prayers and encouragement. I am glad the board is back up again. I felt so alone going through all of this without you guys!

Lexi

 

[alaurie]

You've got both prayers and encouragement here A prayer for you from Beth Moore's Praying God's Word ...a book of prayers that has been so helpful to me.-----Lord, in my heart I plan my course, but You determine my steps. (Prov. 16:9) Life is not going as I planned. I am so grateful that You are not caught off guard. You knew everything that would befall me. Please direct my steps as You determine. I need you, Lord. Carry me when I cannot walk.

 

[justafayes]

Hi Everyone,

Wel a week ago, my Psychiatrist thought that I had been doing well and decided to decrease my antidepressant. The big goal is to have me solely on the mood stabilizer. I started to feel sick last week, but thought it was just the flu that I had. Now things are horrible. I have been thinking about hurting myself. I can't sleep. I can't eat. I am having constant anxiety attacks. My Dr has put me back on my regular dose of medication plus an extra one for the sleeplessness and anxiety.

My husband hasn't been that supportive. Like today - he said that I needed to stop playing games. Normally he is really good. I don't know why he would say something like that.

I have had some help in with the girls. So that is good. I am hoping to be feeling better by Monday. I will see my Dr then.

Anyway I appreciate your prayers and encouragement. I am glad the board is back up again. I felt so alone going through all of this without you guys!

Lexi

Oh sis,, I'm glad your going to the dr too on monday,, I'm also glad the forum is back up,, it really helps when you have husband support, but when you don't it seems to make matters worse..

I'll remember you in prayer, and your husband too. Love you in the Lord, Faye

 

[DLX]

Hey,

Well, my husband appologized for his comment and we talked for a while and prayed. So that was very helpful. Today, I got up and made pancakes for the girls. I was feeling a little overwhelmed after that. But it was a huge step for me to be ab le to just make the pancakes. So I think I am starting to feel a little better. Thanks for your prayers. I appreciate them so much.

Lexi

 

[Zita123]

Hi Everyone,

Wel a week ago, my Psychiatrist thought that I had been doing well and decided to decrease my antidepressant. The big goal is to have me solely on the mood stabilizer. I started to feel sick last week, but thought it was just the flu that I had. Now things are horrible. I have been thinking about hurting myself. I can't sleep. I can't eat. I am having constant anxiety attacks. My Dr has put me back on my regular dose of medication plus an extra one for the sleeplessness and anxiety.

My husband hasn't been that supportive. Like today - he said that I needed to stop playing games. Normally he is really good. I don't know why he would say something like that.

I have had some help in with the girls. So that is good. I am hoping to be feeling better by Monday. I will see my Dr then.

Anyway I appreciate your prayers and encouragement. I am glad the board is back up again. I felt so alone going through all of this without you guys!

Lexi

Hi,
You know I have had that same reaction from my husband but, it goes away. Any sickness no matter what kind, affects the entire family. BUT< When my husband lashes out at me ( it still hurts ) but, I know it's becuse he is not getting as much attention as he should. everything is me, me, me and not him.
I am glad I figured that one out and now we have less of the outburst.
as a matter of fact, to my surprise, my husband read up on bipolar and has a whole new outlook on it.
But, He still wants that little bit of attention.
Thanks and GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY,
Zita

 

[DLX]

Well, I saw my Dr this morning. Things are a lot worse again. I was feeling okay. But now I am feeling suicidal and my Dr tried to convince me to go into the hospital. But I don't know what would happen with the girls, if that were the case. They need to be taken care of first.

I don't even feel like cutting anymore. I just feel like taking a whole bunch of pills. I can't stand the anxiety anymore. She has given me seroquil to take at night. Maybe that will help a little.

She wants to see me again on Thursday.

this sucks.

Lexi

 

[Zita123]

Hi Everyone,

Wel a week ago, my Psychiatrist thought that I had been doing well and decided to decrease my antidepressant. The big goal is to have me solely on the mood stabilizer. I started to feel sick last week, but thought it was just the flu that I had. Now things are horrible. I have been thinking about hurting myself. I can't sleep. I can't eat. I am having constant anxiety attacks. My Dr has put me back on my regular dose of medication plus an extra one for the sleeplessness and anxiety.

My husband hasn't been that supportive. Like today - he said that I needed to stop playing games. Normally he is really good. I don't know why he would say something like that.

I have had some help in with the girls. So that is good. I am hoping to be feeling better by Monday. I will see my Dr then.

Anyway I appreciate your prayers and encouragement. I am glad the board is back up again. I felt so alone going through all of this without you guys!

Lexi

Lexi,
My husband is loving and then the next day full of me and can't stand that I have a problem. So, I do know what you are going thru. Lately I have been blacking out and smashing my car ( twice ) so I took some test today and have hypoglycemia ( the opposite of diebites but, just as dangeruos.
He took me to the tests today and when he dropped me off, he took off screaming out the door that I was a druggy for taking my physic meds!!! I just don't understand guys
If I get in the " don't want to live anymore mood " then he loves me but, if meds are working then forget it!
Just wanted to blow some steam because it just happened and I spent the whole day in the hospital and that was all he could say and then I come on here and see your thread.
GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY!!
Zita

 

[Alive again]

Hey, I have been in a very similiar place as where you are right now. Try to remember that these feelings will pass. Keep taking your meds. For some reason I needed antidepressants until they started to trigger manias and then I was able to stop them. but only then was I successful in not dump[ing right back into the depression. Give your body time to get a blood level stabilized of the anti depressants again. Remember God loves you! You are a bel;oved daughter of the King of Kings. That is an indusputable truth. Feelings can change and be decieving. Remember the truths that God says about you. You are a treasure worth dying for!!!! When you are to weak to pray, just cry out to God to help. I am praying for you!!!!

 

[HeartsnFlowers]

(hugs)
how are you feeling now?

 

[DLX]

Hey,

I am feeling a little better now. Still struggling with sleep - having to take Seroquel. But hopefully that will go soon.

Thanks for thinking of me.

Lexi

 

[goldenviolet]

DoulaLexi when you feel in crisis, but don't want to go into a crisis hospital, do you call them? just to talk about your feelings? some places the county will have counseling for people in crisis. you just show up; kids and all. they will not force you into the hospital, but they will try to support and get you problem solving solutions. sometimes they send a nurse out to the house to make sure you are ok and even to sit with you. i'm not sure what services you have in your area. but i want to encourage you to peek about the phone book and call and ask. hey, big big loves and blessings! God loves you so much! you are special. His will for you is to have peace and joy, even in the mist of struggles. you are important to us sister, important to your family, important to the family of God. whenb you feel in crisis, i want you to have a list of steps and managent skills already prepared to help you think about which will be best for you. we want you safe and comforted.

 

[DLX]

Yes we have something like that here. It is called Mobile Crisis Service. They will come to where you are and evaluate how you are and take you to the hospital if needed. They are also available over the phone to talk and stuff like that. They have been very helpful in the past.

Thanks for your encouragement. I appreciate it so much.

Lexi

 

[goldenviolet]

Lexi you are precious, valuable, blessed, held in honor, beautiful, a jewel, a lamb, a bride, first fruits! called the child of God.

 

[HeartsnFlowers]

DL-
praying for you, hoping you are feeling better.