Nobody cares

[Aredhel]

I lately feel like nobody cares about me anymore. I know there are plenty of people who love me well enough, but they all seem to think I'm overdramatic or something.

I have been feeling depressed since the age of seven. I constantly sought help for it but was not put on antidepressants until a few months ago. I have been cutting myself for a year, and nobody has even tried to help me quit. My parents yell at me and when I told my mom that I wanted to kill myself, she laughed and said "dont be ridiculous."

My msn name is currently filled with lines about cutting, and my msn personal message is "this is my final cry for help". Still no one even mentions it. I have begged my mom again and again to get me a therapist appointment, but she claims she just hasn't "gotten around to it yet". I dont know what to do, I NEED someone to help me but every cry for help falls upon dead ears who think I'm just being overdramatic and attention seeking. I don't know what to do, besides wearing a big sign around my neck with the words "Help me" on it in big print. Why doesn't anyone take me seriously. Why doesn't anyone care?

 

[tapero]

Dear Aredhal,

Hi, I am so sorry you are feeling depressed and have suicidal thoughts.

Please show your mother your post here so she will see to take your feelings seriously.

You need help and I pray your mom will take you seriously and get you to counseling, but meanwhile can you go to your cousneler at school, and also talk with a priest or pastor?

If you ever feel overwhelmed with suicidal feelings call 911 right away. I don't know the emergency number for Canada but you know the number I mean where emergency personel will come and help.

Teen Hope Line has an online 'live' service that can be found at www.teenhopeline.com where people can talk to the staff on there.

Try writing this line also. We care about you, and so do people at 911 and teenhopeline.com.

Here is a 1800 that should work anywhere in Canada. 1800 668 6868

God bless you, and pm me if I can be of any help at all.

Love,
Tapero

 

[Amin]

Hi,
I was wondering if you have a family doctor and if you can get into see him and talk to him about your problem?

Being in the medical practice he would take you seriously, and may be able to help get youstarted.
Chuck.

 

[peacechild4]

((God Cares))

I can understand to a point about your parents.. sometimes (being a parent myself) we truly don't know what to do.. so sometimes we can shrug it off even though that is really dumb.. Now I cannot speak for your parents.. but... I can say it does not mean they don't love you.. Sometimes we think we are helping by shrugging it off.. thinking.. they will get over it..

It must be so difficult for you.. I know my kids say to me.. Mum you don't care.. but I do.. but sometimes our actions say different.. And they aren't feeling my love.. I don't know if you can.. but how about giving them a hug sometimes?? We parents need it!! It is hard work with raising teens.. and honey.. we fail.. forgive all those who have turned their backs on you at this moment.. Most of all.. know this.. God knows!!

I am sorry to hear about your hurt.. I read your profile.. so I see you gave your life to Christ.. Do you pray sometimes? God always listens!! He understands and is always there!!

Sometimes I have found that our problems are there so we turn to God.. I know it really seems all the world has turned their backs on us.. but that is because God is calling us back to Himself.. He has a great plan for you but if we are doing our own things well we are going to fall short.. and honey.. He can help you through this if you will give it to Him.. He can do it without anyone else even knowing!! Has worked for me!!

I might be older then you!! But my God is the same and what He does for me.. He can do for you!!

((Hugs)) You are a special person.. don't ever forget that..

 

[Pasat_14]

I know the feeling because I used to feel the same kinda thing. If you make the choice though, you don't have to feel like you do.
Jesus knows how you feel and wants to help you. He cares about you SO much that we can't even comprehend it. Talk to Jesus and read the Bible because all of the promises Jesus ever made are in there and it can be so comforting. Here's two of my favourites:

My comfort in my suffering is this: Your promise preserves my life.
Psalm 119:50

Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in wakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
2 Corinthians 12:8-10

I'll be praying for you. xox

 

[Aredhel]

thank you all so much guys. Your advice ad support means so much to me, and you have given me a lot of helpful tips.

 

[heatherq17]

I am very sorry that you feel that way!! I know how you are feeling! Do you see a therapist? There is many people that care about you and love you! God loves you! I have Msn if you want to talk or you can just PM me on here anytime you want to talk!! Hope things start to look up for you! ((Hugs)) and ((Prayers))

 

[Jeshu]

It is horrible to feel unloved and not to receive help when we need it. My parents never had a clue when I was down and out and then they blamed me for my mood and behaviour so I know a little how hard that can be.
Please don't do anything silly to prove to them that you are seriously in trouble. Keep searching for a way to find help - through the school system if you have to.

God bless you.

Gerry

 

[Gentle]

You would be astonished just how many people do care and yes, it is so much more difficult to see with the glass darkly that comes with these emotions. See above there is heaps of excellent advice and remember MANY are not helping you b/c they don't know how; or even how to approach it. Nor do I for that matter even though I've been in the darkest of the dark.
I have nothing of the convention to add to what has been said and it's all solid advice. So I'll attempt is to throw out some random comments that prob won't be of help but I'm trying so bear with me. lol
"I" am depressed for one. Where? I mean where is this deperession in 'you." I mean to say you aren't the depression but it simply is, 'it' is depressed, something is depressed. You see what I mean in that don't ID too much with the depression as if it is you and I'm not saying you do.
These problems really cannot be solved by the mind, or ourselves, the "I" or "me' b/c we are it. Of course there are many, many things you can do to help but we can't ultimtley fix ourselves b/c we are that depressed, suicidal mess. I'd say calm your thinking, really calm it and I know what it's like in that state b/c I spent many years suicidal due to health ect.
Learn to watch your thoughts with more passiveness, just watch and don't be in them or try to control them. It's just thought and in a sense not good or negative..no, I'm not being insensitive at all it's just hard to out this into words. But don't analize, weigh or measure the thoughts but simply watch without passion.
Accept the state(no not forever) I mean try to just accept the state you are in as just part of your divine true inner nature. It just is and with too much control the thing grows like a monster so you really don't want to make more of it. Use Faith as a shield, faith meaning you know you will be ok b/c you trust God. If there were only some way I could convey to you that perception and fear seem to be the root cause of almost every depression. Your mind could be too beautiful and complex to understand right now. Never label yourself as a depressed person, I can't stress that enough, and don't think it either. You are you and the depression just is as is your foot. See as humans we by default ID ourselves all too often with pain or where the pain is..it's like it I lit my foot on fire, my foot really feels like me lol
relax, you will be ok
everyone cares that knows you
diet, exercise,vitamins u know these things.
look at your thoughts the way you would ripples on a pond. It's really all just talking in the head, we all do it and yours is just cranked up a bit but that can be fixed
God bless

 

[Ruth~]

(((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))

 

[Jo1]

Hi Aredhel. im really sorry to hear your story. i had a period in my life where i really struggled with those kind of thoughts i got so low.i used to go to my church group and reach rock bottom afterwards.i didnt think people cared. i really dont know how i got through those days, till now, part people praying for me and God pulling me through literally. God bless you.praying for you. lots of love and hugs Joxxxx

 

[Amin]

Hi,
I thought I'd see how you're doing since your first post?
I hope things are going better for you.
You really do have bunchs of people here that care for you.
Gods' Blessings,
Chuck.

 

[HolyGhostFilledMama]

Hi Sweetie,
My heart goes out to you. I feel your pain and know how you feel. I would love to talk to you in a PM if your interested. Please know that there are those of us here that do care about you and please don't do anything to harm yourself. God is a big God and he so wants to do miracles in your life and you are going to be stronger once you get on the other side of this. It's not an easy road but I have some suggestions to help put you on the right track. First of all, start your day off in prayer and give your day to God. Tell him you need his help and to please help you. Also start reading the book of John in the bible or any book for that matter. Also please seek help even if it's a school counselor or your local police department. I work for our local police department as a 911 dispatcher and I know there are places that they can refer you to get help. Like I said I would love to talk to you more on a personal level if your interested. Send me a PM when your ready. Hugs to you sweetie.

 

[Aredhel]

Everytime I make a post asking for advice on here, I am always so overwhelmed by how kind everyone is. It's so nice to have people who understand where I'm at in my life and who are actually taking it seriously and trying to help me out. What you guys have said to encourage me means so much, you have no idea. Thanks a bunch

 

[mel07]

i'm praying for you I have been having those thoughts also lately. You can pm if you ever want to talk. GB.