no more will to live

[Peckens]

i have no more will to live anymore, im not good at anything, i lost alot of friends in just a few months and i did nothing, my entire family hates one another, i have no1 to really talk to anymore, two of the people that were my good friends have been lieing to me, im incredibly lonely, my mom who pretty much yells at me everyday and wants me out of the house for whatever reason, she wont let me see the rest of my family and gets upset when i talk to them on the phone, i havent really had anything good happen to me, im always getting screwed over by the people i care about, i cant even make myself happy anymore, the only friends i really have left im good to but they laugh at my pain even though im always helping them with their problems or at least try, i cant even think back to the last time i was happy, the list continues...

ive honestly consider suicide almost daily the only thing holding me back is my strong belief in god, plus im scared that if i did kill myself i would go to hell

idk anymore

 

[MacPherson_lass]

I'm going through the same trouble, peckens...I haven't yet hit rock bottom, but my wings have gaping holes from the devil's darts...

but I know that what both of us need to remember is...God loves us. He didn't make us for no good reason. We have a purpose in this world, why else would God make us and reveal Himself to us? So I've..you've..gotta stop moping and feeling sorry for ourselves, pick up our crosses again and follow Jesus Christ.

"I Need You To Love Me"
By Barlow Girl
Why, why are You still here with me
Didn't You see what I've done?
In my shame I want to run and hide myself
But it's here I see the truth
I don't deserve You

[Chorus:]
But I need You to love me, and I
I won't keep my heart from You this time
And I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me

I, I have wasted so much time
Pushing You away from me
I just never saw how You could cherish me
'Cause You're a God who has all things
And still You want me

Your love makes me forget what I have been
Your love makes me see who I really am
Your love makes me forget what I have been

God bless you, dude... I know how you feel, and I'll be praying for you.

 

[mmreed]

I know its hard my friend. Hang in there.

Its hard when you feel so alone. I know what its like to feel that way.

Use this website and talk to as many people as you can here. There are alot of good people that care about you. I am one of them. Feel free to msg me anytime you need to talk.

 

[Peckens]

one thing that gets me the most is my x-best friend for 13 years ditched me for drugs

 

[MacPherson_lass]

aw..Peckens.. I feel for ya.

 

[Mrs. Luther073082]

one thing that gets me the most is my x-best friend for 13 years ditched me for drugs

It isn't your fault. Drugs make people crazed for more drugs, to the point where they will do lots of stupid things, like ditching their friends and ruining their relationships. I talk to a guy online who is into all kinds of crap like that. He just won't help himself.

 

[just_dont_know]

Just know that you are not alone. Others have the same thoughts and feelings. I know how you feel. I pray for you.

 

[debbee]

i have no more will to live anymore, im not good at anything, i lost alot of friends in just a few months and i did nothing, my entire family hates one another, i have no1 to really talk to anymore, two of the people that were my good friends have been lieing to me, im incredibly lonely, my mom who pretty much yells at me everyday and wants me out of the house for whatever reason, she wont let me see the rest of my family and gets upset when i talk to them on the phone, i havent really had anything good happen to me, im always getting screwed over by the people i care about, i cant even make myself happy anymore, the only friends i really have left im good to but they laugh at my pain even though im always helping them with their problems or at least try, i cant even think back to the last time i was happy, the list continues...

ive honestly consider suicide almost daily the only thing holding me back is my strong belief in god, plus im scared that if i did kill myself i would go to hell

idk anymore

Hunny, you have everything to live for. I know its hard to kick out of that "dark" place of gloom and despair. it is a chemical embalance and you need a little help to get you there.meds can do that. at wal-mart you can get a bottle of st.John wort for 5 bucks. it helps promote positive moods and is natural.
you are a child of a King. 'Why art thou cast down,O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope thou in God. Ps.42v11 I called upon the Lord in distress: the Lord answered me, and set me in a large place. Ps. 118v5 Cast all your care upon him; for he careth for you. 1Peter 5v7 Jesus died for all the sin and misery in this world. he nailed it to the cross and triumph over all the power of the enemy.you may not see the sun shine around you, but you can know the light that is in you by faith. you may need some meds to uplift you out of that mood but thats o.k the enviroment and things in food unbalances the brain so its not your fault. cry it out, tears contain chemicals that need released. we love you and I will be here for you and anyone else that needs comfort. let me pray, Father, I thank you for hearing my prayer, I ask you lord to touch everyone here that faces no hope, no way out but you carried that burdened so we won't have to and I ask you in Jesus name to comfort the hurting and bring healing to them so they may know you and the power of your might, in Jesus Holy name i pray, Amen and Amen God Bless you, Deb~

 

[Mrs. Luther073082]

Hunny, you have everything to live for. I know its hard to kick out of that "dark" place of gloom and despair. it is a chemical embalance and you need a little help to get you there.meds can do that. at wal-mart you can get a bottle of st.John wort for 5 bucks. it helps promote positive moods and is natural.
you are a child of a King. 'Why art thou cast down,O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope thou in God. Ps.42v11 I called upon the Lord in distress: the Lord answered me, and set me in a large place. Ps. 118v5 Cast all your care upon him; for he careth for you. 1Peter 5v7 Jesus died for all the sin and misery in this world. he nailed it to the cross and triumph over all the power of the enemy.you may not see the sun shine around you, but you can know the light that is in you by faith. you may need some meds to uplift you out of that mood but thats o.k the enviroment and things in food unbalances the brain so its not your fault. cry it out, tears contain chemicals that need released. we love you and I will be here for you and anyone else that needs comfort. let me pray, Father, I thank you for hearing my prayer, I ask you lord to touch everyone here that faces no hope, no way out but you carried that burdened so we won't have to and I ask you in Jesus name to comfort the hurting and bring healing to them so they may know you and the power of your might, in Jesus Holy name i pray, Amen and Amen God Bless you, Deb~

Exercising regularly can help with depression, too.

 

[Peckens]

the only excersise i really enjoy is running and skateboarding but 4 weeks ago i sprained my ankle and then again 2 weeks later so im trying to stay off it

 

[debbee]

hey, so sorry for the double, i thought it didn't go thru cause i could not find it. i hope i didn't come on to strong but i have been reading for months here and i cry everytime i see one of you kids hurt. i know what you feel, i have my moments. a.d.h.d, bipolar, panic/anxiety
outburst, depression.i have insomnia, sleep apnea, and i have to fight my husband who won't let me stay on meds. why? well, i think he feels that i should be perfect because i am strong in the lord and he sees mental drugs as a weakness, at least on me. so i went off cold turkey for 2 months now and i have my moments. but it helps me to be able to help you,and you,and you and whoever.hang in there, love DEB~

 

[ArmouredSaint]

one thing that gets me the most is my x-best friend for 13 years ditched me for drugs

You're having a rough time of it. Please remember the choices we make live with those we leave behind for their lifetime. You may think nobody cares.Do you really think that nobody would miss you??????
Be stronger than those circumstances around you,ride them out.Please..

 

[CowsGoOink]

I just wanted to let you know that I will be praying for you...for God to give you strength to get through these trying times for you and for you to find happiness again. I have been in the same boat as you, except I actually did try to commit suicide. But praise the Lord..God opened my eyes to the evil that was happening and I called for help before it was too late. It may seem like life is horrible right now, but know that God loves you soooooooo much, and he has a purpose for your life. Keep that faith of yours going my dear....you WILL make it through this.

 

[newyorknewyork]

take care, ive no idea what to say.. ive been suicidal too.. i know the pain of what that feels like

congrats 4 hanging in there mate!

can u see a doctor? can u visit a church and make new friends there and can you see a counsellor somewhere?

 

[Peckens]

i dont understand how is life really worth it?

 

[TexasSky]

Peckens

*HUGS*

I am so sorry that you are hurting so much. We won't leave you though. We care about you, and we're here for you.

If you need someone to listen - I'm here. PM me.

I mean it when I say I care.

 

[TexasSky]

Peckens,

You might want to email jo@samaritans.org

The Samaritans are totally anonymous, and totally confidential.

 

[TexasSky]

Peckens,

You sound so sad and so depressed, and you've talked about wanting to hurt yourself. How much have you thought about it? Have you thought about ways to hurt yourself?

 

[Peckens]

i think about it everyday but i have yet to think about hurting myself just killing, if i do manage to have a good day like i finally did the otherday even though i was very sick the next day i will be feeling worse than ever like today my friend told me she was going to stop getting close to people today i just found out she has been making out with my friend, grabbing his butt, holding hands in the hall etc. the things couples may do and lieing to me about it

i have just about had it with caring about people because everytime i do they screw me over in some of the worst ways imaginable

 

[TexasSky]

I am glad you had that good day, and I am sorry that you had a bad day today. When you say you just think about killing yourself, do you mean you just feel sad and think you want to? Or do you mean you think of ways to do it?