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[pummpie]

I am 39 years old will be 40 in november. Although I do not look 38, people guess me for mid-to-late 20's. I was blessed with great collagen I guess. MY DH and I have been trying to conceive for 8 loooooong years. I have never given up hope and the Faith in My Heavenly Father. I won't quit until the "Fat Lady Sings". MY Dh is alot older than I am and has 3 adopted children. His first wife had some hormonal thing and could not conceive. I was pg with my first husband and miscarried. 1st husband died in a tragic accident. I have unexplained infertility. We've been ttc since 9-99. I went to a quack who was at ohsu (oregon health science university) I told him about my hx of fibriods and he never order a hspg or anything, he just did a vag. u/s and but me on clomid and said start trying. So we did for 4 mo. nothing happened. My periods got heavier and heavier. I started hemmoraging and bleeding for 20-25 days per month. This went on for 3 mo. So searching the web again for an RE who could help me and us to conceive without the threat of hystorectomy cause of the bleeding. I found his Dr. matteri in portland. The first thing he did was or a hspg and found my uterus plaged with fib. He order my myoectomy but........ My insurance would not cover the surgery. Pre existing condition they wanted a hystrectomy. I was Shocked. So my RE put me into menopause. This was a nightmare. Moodswings, nightsweat my skin would breakout like a teenager and my hair started to fallout. I really wonder if this was worth it. Six month dh faught with our insurance co. battling back and forth. Finally Six mo. later we get the call that I can have the surgery. Yea!... THey stopped counting the fib. they removed after 15. It took me 8 weeks to recover. I requeste t3 and motrin 600mg. I can't take anything stronger or I will throw up and with surgical tape on my pelvis I wasn't gonna take any chances. then we started the whole fertility process in '01 clomid 4 cycles then we'd take a break. I stressed. then clomid with iui's 4x break clomid with iui's and hmg 4x break stress bfn stress more drugs bn stress. Before we started I weighed 120. by the end of 04' 205lbs, I'm only 5'5. I was mordified and disgusted with myself. I lost 20lb and thought it was time for ivf. execept for the surgery and my dh sperm count and his sperm washing the insurance co. did not cover anything else. So I was searching for less expensive ivf. I found a RE who taught at the univ. of texas and had a practice in mexico. Boy I researched him for over 9 mo. We flew down there and met with him and we both had a great feeling about so long story short it did not work for us, but i've talk to alot of ladies that It did work for. I figured that I needed to get healthy and thin again if this was going to work for us I enrolled in culinary school and became a pastry Chef. I lost 40lbs. Carring those trays firmed me up I took the stairs and limited my pastry intake. The last 20 pounds were so hard. I joined ww. I've been seeing a natural pathic physican and I feel soooo good. We decided to give IVF one more try now that I eat right exercise and my system has been cleared of harmful parasites we wil try if the fall. I still have painful periods but I only have pain for about 3 days. I just wanted to Share my WHOLE STORY with you Ladies. To let you know that now matter how bad it get or how badly you feel there is ALWAYS Hope and Faith. And Please don't give up.
DH and I went to see my RE on the 20th of Febuary and I am not waiting for CD1 so I can do the clomiphine challange test, I will be doing my 3rd and final IVF. I now feel if it does not happen I can finally move on. I am tired and if it does not happen, I really look forward the the second half of my life with my DH.
Take Care And God Bless All of You
Pummpie

 

[ksdedee74]

Thank you for your story. I will pray for you!