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Hi rachel,
there are alotof lovely caring people here in CF, PM me anytime:wave:

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Just wanted to say hi and introduce myself. I'll be a frequent visitor here. I'm Rachel. This is one of those situations where I can say "been there, done that...dangit I'm there again." So I don't really know how to do this whole first post thing, so this is my attempt. I'm 21. I've been into SI since I was 12. So here I am...
 
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rfprewitt said:
Just wanted to say hi and introduce myself. I'll be a frequent visitor here. I'm Rachel. This is one of those situations where I can say "been there, done that...dangit I'm there again." So I don't really know how to do this whole first post thing, so this is my attempt. I'm 21. I've been into SI since I was 12. So here I am...
Hi Rachel. How are you? Is there anything that you would like to share with all of us that you need to get off your chest? We are here to support each other. You have friends here. God bless you. Best Wishes. Lily00 "I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me." Phillippians 4:13. :angel:
 
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Anything I want to get off my chest?? Yeah. I'm tired of hiding everything. I'm tired of doing it on my own and not having anyone who understands. I'm tired of when people do find out by mistake that I SI, them getting mad at me for it. I"m tired of feeling guilty and shameful every time I go to church. I'm tired of living a double life. That's my mood right now. Sorry.
 
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welcome to CF!!

One thing that I find really hard about telling people about SI is worrying about their reaction to it. When a person is clearly feeling bad enough to SI, the last thing they need is someone taking it badly-getting angry, thinking you are stupid or anything like that.

I agree with you in that sometimes I do feel like I am leading a double life but I have to rest in knowing that God knows my heart and is only His opinion that really counts. A friend of my was praying with me a few weeks ago when I was feeling bad about not leading a truely committed Christian life at the moment and she told me this: When a baby is first born, and even for quite sometime afterwards they can't do anything for themselves, e.g. walking. Do their parents get cross at them for not being able to be independent and sort things out for themselves? No! The mum and dad lovingly carry the child and care for its every need, totally willingly, showing their love. It's like that with God. He knows that at the moment you've lost your footing a wee bit but instead of being cross with you that you can't do it yourself, He is sweeping you up into His arms and carrying you along with Him

I pray that God reveals more and more of Himself to you and that you know His presence so closely.
 
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rfprewitt said:
Anything I want to get off my chest?? Yeah. I'm tired of hiding everything. I'm tired of doing it on my own and not having anyone who understands. I'm tired of when people do find out by mistake that I SI, them getting mad at me for it. I"m tired of feeling guilty and shameful every time I go to church. I'm tired of living a double life. That's my mood right now. Sorry.
It's alright. Get it all out!!! That is exactly what I do. Don't believe me, just check out, "Losing Hope" under the depression forums. That was one of my first posts and I still do the same thing once in awhile... I know how you feel. I have felt guilty and shameful so much and I still do. There had been times I have been so weak, I have failed God so much to actually cut secretly inside the church and I just feel like throwing up afterwards. It is okay though. Guilt and shame are human emotions, but please remember, that "All sin and fall short of the glory of God." We are God's children and you are so beautiful in the eyes of the Lord. No matter what happens, God is there for you and He just wants to hold you in His arms and comfort you. It is hard, but with counseling, prayer, fervent study, and Thanksgiving to our Lord, we can get through this!!! We must stick together, and I will pray for you. Don't give up. We are in the same boat here and we know EXACTLY how you feel. Please, if you have anything else you want to say, just get it all off. It feels good to get it off your chest to people going through the same thing. Just keep going. Life is hard when you have depression or OCD but we are Christians and we shouldn't give up without a fight!!! Rely on God, and He will see you through. Happy New Year, my friend. Best Wishes. Lily00 :angel: :prayer: :clap: p.s. hiding it just makes it worse, I think. I just told a few and now I have someone to talk too... I hate hiding it also. I hate living a double life... but we have an old nature and new nature. They will always fight against each other and we can only feed the one we want to be stronger!
 
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i know what it's like to live the double life. it stinks. i've SI too but not many people know about it at church. but everytime the youth pastor talks about i feel like i have all these glances coming my way. which makes me really uncomfortable. i don't know what you r feeling exactly but you can tell me anytime.
 
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rfprewitt said:
I just get really mad and I dont know why. Or I get really depressed and I don't know why. Then I realize I don't know why I am the way I am and I get mad all over again. I hate it. I try to ignore it and that sucks. I'll vent as I feel the need to, but mainly I just keep to myself. I don't talk well.
rfprewitt, I am not a good talker either. I am even scared to go back to seeing a counselor because it was hard enough talking to my old one before she graduated. It is so much easier over the net though so a christian counselor was kind enough to help me on here! ^_^ It is much easier and though the questions are just as deep... I don't know. I know exactly how you feel though. I am mad at myself all of the time because God has blessed me so much in my life and here I am cutting and being sad and frustrated and I just don't understand why at times... God allows this to strengthen us though. He would never give us a burden we can't carry. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, but we need it to strengthen our faith... satan just wants to bring us down, that's all... I tried ignoring my past memories and my OCD and depression, from experience though, my friend, it just doesn't work. The only way to defeat this is to meet it face on and try so hard to trust that God will see us through. Best Wishes to you, I will continue to pray for you. PM me anytime and vent anytime you like. We hear you. We know what you are feeling because we are going through the same thing. Lily00 :angel: :prayer:
 
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rfprewitt, I am not a good talker either. I am even scared to go back to seeing a counselor because it was hard enough talking to my old one before she graduated. It is so much easier over the net though so a christian counselor was kind enough to help me on here! ^_^ It is much easier and though the questions are just as deep... I don't know. I know exactly how you feel though. I am mad at myself all of the time because God has blessed me so much in my life and here I am cutting and being sad and frustrated and I just don't understand why at times... God allows this to strengthen us though. He would never give us a burden we can't carry. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, but we need it to strengthen our faith... satan just wants to bring us down, that's all... I tried ignoring my past memories and my OCD and depression, from experience though, my friend, it just doesn't work. The only way to defeat this is to meet it face on and try so hard to trust that God will see us through. Best Wishes to you, I will continue to pray for you. PM me anytime and vent anytime you like. We hear you. We know what you are feeling because we are going through the same thing. Lily00 :angel: :prayer:

Amen!
 
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I encourage you to read a few books if you like to read....One is called "Abba's child" by Brennan Manning. The others are by a man named David Pelzer who wrote a series about his own life. The three books are "A Child Called It," "The Lost Boy," and "A Man Named Dave." That series is probably the most inspirational thing that I have ever read. It is so amazing to read that. It is something that anyone feeling like we feel at any time should read. And I really encourage you to read it.

Much love,...pm me with any questions or such
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I have one question for you rfprewitt...

Do You want to stop SI'ing? You clearly see the ways in which it is affecting your life, but have you tried to stop?

Your life won't get any better until you start the road to recovery. And you can't begin that until you look inside yourself and truly ask yourself if you want to quit and why you want to quit.

If you want to quit that is great! I would love to talk to you and offer my support....Of course the one who will really help you is Jesus, rely on him and he will answer all your needs.
 
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LAWise520 said:
I encourage you to read a few books if you like to read....One is called "Abba's child" by Brennan Manning. The others are by a man named David Pelzer who wrote a series about his own life. The three books are "A Child Called It," "The Lost Boy," and "A Man Named Dave." That series is probably the most inspirational thing that I have ever read. It is so amazing to read that. It is something that anyone feeling like we feel at any time should read. And I really encourage you to read it.

i have read the books by dave pelzer and they are fantastic. :clap: :amen: shows that people can surive the terrible things that happend to them in life.
i read a few good christian books recently. one of which was so like my story that it was as if someone had just opened up my memory and rewritten it. it scared me a lot at first but then i re-read it and it got me thinking about things. even though the books are great they don't seem to help me much. i think thats because they are books. i know most of them are based on reallife stories and stuff but i don't know.they do get me thinking though.
i have self harmed for over a year but peopel found out a year ago. not many people know i still do it they all think i just stopped there and then. my youth pastor and a few friends at church now. i do fel uncomforatable aswell when things to do with si and other stuff get brought up. you just want to dissapear there and then without being noticed. it is so hard :cry:
 
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