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[Rascoe916]

Hello everyone, I am brand new to this forum. I was diagnosed with OCD and depression earlier this year. I am currently taking Zoloft (200 MG Daily) and I am in group therapy (Exposure and Response Prevention). I am thankful to God that he has answered my prayers, and led me to this forum. I started having OCD symptons when I was around 6. I would constantly check to make sure the lights were off, the water wasn't dripping, my belly button was clean, etc. and on and on. When I was 13, I had my first intrusive thoughts, and it horrified me. I would, like so many others on this forum, have blasphemous thoughts and urges. For the next 13 years I would have these thoughts, and would constantly seek answers from prayer counselors, pastors, and God. I ask God numerous time for forgivness and recieved Jesus over and over. I would right the date down when I recieved Christ for reassurance, but it never helped. I felt I never recieved him. I've always believed the thoughts were mines, and I could control what's in my head. I've always felt like a fake Christian, and was jeolous of everyone having peace with God, and sure of there salvation. I was scared to tell people my thoughts, cause I was afraid they might start thinking it, or they may look down at me. Worst of all, I was afraid I might have commited the unpardonable sin. I would always look at people and ask myself, "Why doesn't anyone think like me?" "Am I the only one that thinks like this?"
I prayed and cried to God, asking him WHY? I would try to tell him that I did love him, even though I was thinking this. After so many years, God finally answered my prayers and led me to a wonderful Christian counselor who told me of OCD. When I went online and read about OCD and it's symptons, and for the first time in my life I felt Gods love and presence. Now I take my OCD as a trial in my life to grow in my faith. Even though it was my worst years of my life, it was the only time in my life I really searched for God in my life. Like Dr. Charles Stanley said "God will do whatever it takes to bring you back to him" I am thankful for my OCD, and thankful for this Christian Forum, because now I know there are people like me. N-E-wayz, just wanted to let everyone know my story, and let you guys know I pray for each and every OCD sufferer. Have a wonderful day and God Bless!!!!


Love,
Rascoe

 

[EbonNelumbo]

I was diagnosed as OCD at 8 (disregarded) and again at 16.

It wasn't severe at all, though it tends to spark up a bit when I am anxious. Numbers are my thing, repetition, etc.

 

[BeccaLynn]

Rascoe,

My story sounds somewhat similar to yours. Starting around the age of 7, I felt something was wrong with me when it came to the things of God. I guess that was the early signs of OCD. In 9th grade, so at 13 I guess, I had my first intrusive thought. I battled for years in silence. There was a period of time when I would make a cross on a certain day on my calendar to say, "I accepted Jesus on THIS day.". There are quite a few days that have a cross on them because I never felt the reassurance or peace that I thought I should've, so I would pray again. It's difficult to live without the peace that others speak about having or visibly show, but it is an answer to prayer to be able to read other's stories and to be encouraged by those who have been and are experiencing similar things. I'm glad you found this sight. Although I've just recently discovered it, it is something that has helped and is continuing to help me tremendously.

Welcome!
Rebecca

 

[jc9992]

yeah rascoe your story is very similar to mine.i was about 12 or 13 when it happened.and have been scared stiff that ive blasphemed.

 

[gracealone]

Rascoe,
Thank you sooo much for sharing your story. It's especially important that you shared that it wasn't until that wonderful Christian counselor helped you to seek professional help (exposure/response), for your OCD that things began to improve.
It's wonderful to hear your testimony of how God has taught you so much in and through your OCD. This has been my experience also. The verses I love to proclaim are: "But HE said to me "My grace is sufficient for you, for my strength is being made perfect in your weakness" ,Therefore (in light of this), I will glory in my affliction that the power of Christ might rest upon me, for when I am weak, He is strong!!"
It's all about Him..isnt' it?
God Bless You!!
Mitzi

 

[Liftyourhand7]

Hi Rascoe, Welcome to the forum, I too have suffered the same way that you have, This OCD thing Yuck! Inspite of the OCD I just continue to trust God, He is faithful and truly will never leave us inspite of our feelings or thoughts, Thank you so much for praying for each one of us on this forum, many here really suffer and we need all the prayer we can get. I will also pray for you, I am glad that you have been able to get the help you need. May God continue to bless and help you. Blessings, Jan

 

[Rascoe916]

Hi Rascoe, Welcome to the forum, I too have suffered the same way that you have, This OCD thing Yuck! Inspite of the OCD I just continue to trust God, He is faithful and truly will never leave us inspite of our feelings or thoughts, Thank you so much for praying for each one of us on this forum, many here really suffer and we need all the prayer we can get. I will also pray for you, I am glad that you have been able to get the help you need. May God continue to bless and help you. Blessings, Jan

Hey Thanx Jan for your post. I appreciate your prayers, and I will be sure to mention you in my prayers. I do not try to let my emotions get to me. Feelings change day to day, but God is always the same. K.I.T. and have a beautiful day!!!!!

Love,
Rascoe

 

[Rascoe916]

Rascoe,

My story sounds somewhat similar to yours. Starting around the age of 7, I felt something was wrong with me when it came to the things of God. I guess that was the early signs of OCD. In 9th grade, so at 13 I guess, I had my first intrusive thought. I battled for years in silence. There was a period of time when I would make a cross on a certain day on my calendar to say, "I accepted Jesus on THIS day.". There are quite a few days that have a cross on them because I never felt the reassurance or peace that I thought I should've, so I would pray again. It's difficult to live without the peace that others speak about having or visibly show, but it is an answer to prayer to be able to read other's stories and to be encouraged by those who have been and are experiencing similar things. I'm glad you found this sight. Although I've just recently discovered it, it is something that has helped and is continuing to help me tremendously.

Welcome!
Rebecca

Hey Rebecca thanx for your post. It's wonderful to hear your testimony. I thought I was the only one, but I am happy to hear that we went through the same things. It encourages me to hear people going through what we did. I will keep you in my prayers and continue to pray for every OCD sufferer. God Bless

Love,
Rascoe