Don't ask me how I got here tonight, I have no clue but I need prayers badly. I was raised that you do not give out personal info, only say "pray for me", but I need specifics.
I was diagnosed with multiple personalities in July of last year. After four years and several incorrect diagnosises, I truly belive God led me to someone who could help; however, now other personalities are not cooperating with therapy. I had several small fragments in my mind to begin with (256 to be precise - polyfragmented it is called), and now I am down to a smaller number (32) but therapy is at a stand-still. There is nothing that I can do about this, and my life is less than liveable at this point. Please pray that these "minds of mine" are soften and willing to be healed.
My main problem is that in therapy, personalities have come out and told my therapist different things... like that I was raped by my step father and my mother forced me to have an abortion. This part was able to draw to different pills and even name the medical office and address of the office; all of which I verfied. Of course, being that my mother and stepfather have been married since I was 7 and that MY children often spent the night at their house, I am very distrubed. Please pray for clarification on this, and the willingness of other personalities to share this information and to be healed.
I have been unable to go to church for a few years. If I plan it ahead of time, I will come down with a severe flu, as will my children (ages 7, 4 and 2). If I go on a spur of the moment, once I am actually in church, I begin sobbing uncontrollably. So much so, I get a migraine and it takes me a few days, at best to fully recover. I believe there are a lot of issues for this, but I don't know what. Please pray that God can bring clarification and that the part of my mind who experiences the pain and guilt of the abortion is able to accept God's forgiveness and know this was not her fault, nor was it under her control.
Also, please pray that I can better help my children, as they show signs of relying on dissociating from very small issues and I would like to help them in alternatives so that they do not rely on dissociating from events in order to handle the stress of life, as I did.
I don't know what else to pray for, so I suppose that would be nice as well... prayers to know what areas need prayers, since I have no clue what the other personalities need at this point.
Hopefully I can remember to get back here. Thank you very much in advance, I know this all sounds strange, especially if you have never heard of it all before.
I was diagnosed with multiple personalities in July of last year. After four years and several incorrect diagnosises, I truly belive God led me to someone who could help; however, now other personalities are not cooperating with therapy. I had several small fragments in my mind to begin with (256 to be precise - polyfragmented it is called), and now I am down to a smaller number (32) but therapy is at a stand-still. There is nothing that I can do about this, and my life is less than liveable at this point. Please pray that these "minds of mine" are soften and willing to be healed.
My main problem is that in therapy, personalities have come out and told my therapist different things... like that I was raped by my step father and my mother forced me to have an abortion. This part was able to draw to different pills and even name the medical office and address of the office; all of which I verfied. Of course, being that my mother and stepfather have been married since I was 7 and that MY children often spent the night at their house, I am very distrubed. Please pray for clarification on this, and the willingness of other personalities to share this information and to be healed.
I have been unable to go to church for a few years. If I plan it ahead of time, I will come down with a severe flu, as will my children (ages 7, 4 and 2). If I go on a spur of the moment, once I am actually in church, I begin sobbing uncontrollably. So much so, I get a migraine and it takes me a few days, at best to fully recover. I believe there are a lot of issues for this, but I don't know what. Please pray that God can bring clarification and that the part of my mind who experiences the pain and guilt of the abortion is able to accept God's forgiveness and know this was not her fault, nor was it under her control.
Also, please pray that I can better help my children, as they show signs of relying on dissociating from very small issues and I would like to help them in alternatives so that they do not rely on dissociating from events in order to handle the stress of life, as I did.
I don't know what else to pray for, so I suppose that would be nice as well... prayers to know what areas need prayers, since I have no clue what the other personalities need at this point.
Hopefully I can remember to get back here. Thank you very much in advance, I know this all sounds strange, especially if you have never heard of it all before.
's and prayers!
