new here...looking for support(may trigger)

[MsSpongebob]

I was sexually assaulted back in march. I feel like since then I have lost most of my friends. People who know won't mention it (like my parents) . I feel like I've been stamped with a scarlet letter and labeled damaged goods.

I'm in therapy...was already seeing an awesome christian therapist so that did end up being one positve thing.

I feel so alone though. Its been a rough time...I've developed PTSD, am having to take two anti-depressants and an anti-anxoety med to really be able to function along with therapy.

The guy was caught but I decided against pressing charges as I was scared for my life...that if I pressed charges he would find me and kill me. Plus I didn't feel like I could go through a trial emotionally and physically. I know the odds were probably against a conviction anyway.

I didn't know the guy who assaulted me...had never seen him before and was attacked while taking a walk...just a block or so away from my home. The police determined that it was not random, that I was the target and had been watched etc before it happened. I guess if I had seen him around the neighborhood I just hadnt paid any attention to him prior to the assault

So just feeling really alone and looking to talk to those who have BTDT

 

[myanchor]

mine was years ago when I was 9 or 10 and my own older sibling and his friends did it. EMDR eye movement desenstitization something worked well for me on the PTSD.

Yours is fresh and although I understand your decicsion to not press charges, think you would have gotten closure for it if you had.

You were damaged, but you are definitely not damaged goods. You have a lot of great things coming in your life, because you have Christ, and you have the Holy Spirit within you and the Holy Spirit feels everything you do, and will support you in it.

Keep coming here, there are lots of good folks who can help you with perspective.

In Christ.

 

[Criada]

I'm sorry, sweetie, that is an horrific experience, and it really isn't surprising that it is still affecting you!
EMDR helped me a lot as well, it's worth looking into.
To be honest, sweetie, being anxious and depressed is perfectly natural. Sometimes it is very hard for our loved ones to cope, and they can react by avoiding us, not because they don't care, but because they don't know how to help.

If you need someone to talk to, please PM me.
Praying for you