New here and need advice

[Leta]

Hello!
I found this site and I've been browsing a bit, I love it!
All the posts are so encouraging and heart felt what a wonderful group of people!
I am bulimic and have been for many years. I struggle and lose massive amounts of weight, try getting healthy, gain weight back, diet, fall right back into bulimia. My husband of 10 years said he didn't love me anymore and never would agian and divorced me leaving me with four small children. I plummeted into a relapse and that is where I am tonight . I have been purging everyday several times a day. I know that it's not right, healthy, or pleasing to God but I can't stop! I even say to myself that "I don't want to do this, yes I just binged and I feel guilty and uncomfortable but I don't want to or feel like purging!" but inevitably I do it anyway. I hate this! I hate being this way ! I pray for God to deliver me and there are times in the past when I feel He had and it's great. Then there are time like this when I am purging 3-4 times a day hating myself wishing for death. Please, any words you have will be encouaging. Pray for me and I will pray for you as well!
Leta

 

[WhereareyouGod?]

*big hugs* that must be real hard for you, if you need me let me know

Love n Hugs

Lizzie

 

[chaelsworld0o]

Oh dear, I'm so sorry to hear that! It's funny how we're so used to going back to that one "comfort"... I haven't been married and gone through something like that but i've gone through stress itself where my bulimia would grow tremendously! I'm really struggling myself right now but we just have to remember who to put our TRUST IN! You know? Bulimia is harmful to us, you know? God isn't. If we remain faithful to him, he'll show us that it's really worth it. I know you're going through a rough time, I will surely pray for you! I hope things get better, seriously. --Rachael

 

[Leta]

Thank you Lizzie and Rachel!
I really appreciate your encouragement. It's great to come here and have people understand you. I feel as if no one undrestands at all, just judge ya know?
Any how, thank you both!
God bless you!
Saleta

 

[madison1101]

Oh Sweetie,

My husband did the very same thing after 25 years of marriage. It was awful. I didn't get into the eating disorder at that time, I drank. Oh, it was so hard.

I have several suggestions. The easiest is to try attending Overeaters Anonymous for social support. The reason it is easy is that it is free, and depending on where you live, it might be convenient. www.oa.org is the website.

The other suggestion, that I have tried, is to get treatment at an eating disorder treatment facility. They have all sorts of programs depending on the facility. Some are full inpatient. Some are outpatient. I went to Renfrew Center in Philadelphia, and it was good.

You don't have to do this alone, and you don't have to do it in your own strength. Scripture says, I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.

Hugs,
Trish

 

[WhereareyouGod?]

no one here will judge you hunni, i know what you mean though, there have been a few ppl i have spoken to who have said that its just a phase and that eventually i will get through it etc etc etc i hate that! I am here for you if you need me hunni

Lizzie

 

[beetlequeendiva]

Praying for you Leta and welcome to the boards!!!

 

[Leta]

Thank you everyone! Sending you lots of hugs!
God Bless,
Saleta

 

[PromiseSeeker]

This is a great spot to come to and vent those feelings......... not many people understand them......

I'm praying for you..... I know you must be going through some great difficulties and your ED doesn't help either......