Never being able to smile

[wolfiswill]

I was born without the ability to make any facial expressions. I can’t smile or frown or make silly faces. I also have bad hearing and my eyes aren’t the best. I have a problem pronouncing b and v. They sound alike. When I was born the doctors gave my parents no hope of me ever making it and if I did I would have severe medical problems. Thankfully even then God knew the plans He had for me. I did come home from the hospital. I didn’t walk till I was two. When I was about two the surgeries begin. Over the last 23 years I have had about seventeen different surgeries ranging from eye surgery to jaw surgery to ear surgery and mouth surgery. Those were hard to go through. When I was three my dad left my family. That would really hit me in my teen years. Growing up I was very close to my mom and my grandparents. They treated me like any normal child.
When I started middle school I received a rude awakening. I begin to face major rejection from my peers. It lasted my years and I remember getting called all kinds of names, being the last one picked for a game, and never having anyone sit with me for lunch. During that time I begin to really doubt God and I questioned God a lot. God why? Why am I different from everyone else? I didn’t understand and it hurt so badly. During seventh grade I started going to a Christian school and I thought things would have been better. They continued as they had before. I still questioned God and couldn’t understand why all of this was happening. Looking back now those were some of the roughest times of my life.

When I was ten my mom married my step dad. I thought that finally things would be different and I would have a dad in my life, but my step dad and I never got close. It is still like that. I was brought up in church, but didn’t give my life to Jesus until I was twelve or thirteen. What a change He has made in me. I look back just over the past few years and see where He has brought me. When I was a junior in high school I felt God leading me into youth ministry and then in college He begin to give me a passion for missions. If you take youth ministry and missions you have my heart at the core.

I still remember when I became a Christian, never believing that God could use me and now I see how He has and it blows me away. I know that I need Him and I can’t live without Him. My goal is to live in complete surrender to Him. He is the only one worth living for. If God were to say “Will, I want to change your medical problems” I would say “No God because they cause me to depend on you.” God didn’t make any mistakes. He never has and He never will. I praise God for what He has done in my life and what He continues to do. In a nutshell this is what God has done in me. I give Him all the glory!



Will

 

[ysl_75]

Praise the Lord! Your testimony is good really encouraged me because I know our God loves all of us very much. Merry Christmas to you!

God bless you and take care!

 

[BeautyForAshes]

Thank you for sharing your testimony!

 

[This_Beautiful_Grace]

Wow! You've been through so much and I can only imagine how hard it must have been - growing up. Thank you so much for sharing! It had helped me and I've definitely gotten something in reading it. God bless you - He is wonderful and is working beautifully in you.

 

[Maharg]

Thank you for sharing your testimony.

 

[angelwind]

Thanks for sharing your testimony...it is very encouraging. It made me "smile". I bet you have a "smile" on the inside...in your heart.

 

[wolfiswill]

Thanks for the encouragement. It is all God! I'm going through a hard time in life, a transistion and it is good but hard. Jesus is really teaching me a lot.

 

[Amostar]

That was a very inspiring testimony. It makes me fell like I should depend more on God, instead of myself. Wonderful story, thank you for sharing!

 

[Tashena]

Absoutly beautiful! Jesus is so awesome!

 

[Silent Enigma]

Your testimony was a blessing to me.
Thanks.

 

[Roots]

Amen

 

[bfly]

I was born without the ability to make any facial expressions. I can’t smile or frown or make silly faces. I also have bad hearing and my eyes aren’t the best. I have a problem pronouncing b and v. They sound alike. When I was born the doctors gave my parents no hope of me ever making it and if I did I would have severe medical problems. Thankfully even then God knew the plans He had for me. I did come home from the hospital. I didn’t walk till I was two. When I was about two the surgeries begin. Over the last 23 years I have had about seventeen different surgeries ranging from eye surgery to jaw surgery to ear surgery and mouth surgery. Those were hard to go through. When I was three my dad left my family. That would really hit me in my teen years. Growing up I was very close to my mom and my grandparents. They treated me like any normal child.
When I started middle school I received a rude awakening. I begin to face major rejection from my peers. It lasted my years and I remember getting called all kinds of names, being the last one picked for a game, and never having anyone sit with me for lunch. During that time I begin to really doubt God and I questioned God a lot. God why? Why am I different from everyone else? I didn’t understand and it hurt so badly. During seventh grade I started going to a Christian school and I thought things would have been better. They continued as they had before. I still questioned God and couldn’t understand why all of this was happening. Looking back now those were some of the roughest times of my life.

When I was ten my mom married my step dad. I thought that finally things would be different and I would have a dad in my life, but my step dad and I never got close. It is still like that. I was brought up in church, but didn’t give my life to Jesus until I was twelve or thirteen. What a change He has made in me. I look back just over the past few years and see where He has brought me. When I was a junior in high school I felt God leading me into youth ministry and then in college He begin to give me a passion for missions. If you take youth ministry and missions you have my heart at the core.

I still remember when I became a Christian, never believing that God could use me and now I see how He has and it blows me away. I know that I need Him and I can’t live without Him. My goal is to live in complete surrender to Him. He is the only one worth living for. If God were to say “Will, I want to change your medical problems” I would say “No God because they cause me to depend on you.” God didn’t make any mistakes. He never has and He never will. I praise God for what He has done in my life and what He continues to do. In a nutshell this is what God has done in me. I give Him all the glory!



Will

God Bless you.