I'm new to this forum, but not new to my belief. I am going through a very dark spiritual journey right now, and I need all the love, hope, and prayer I can recieve right now, so I am reaching out.My father is a liar. 13 years ago he "turned his life around." He married a Christian counselor and minister and for that long, he has preached down at my siblings and me and brought my faith to it's knees. He currently has a girlfriend and is filing for divorce, and he will not speak to my stepmother, who I called after many months of not speaking, and she has no clue. I will not reveal my father's lies, but I offered her my love and prayers and my shoulder. She says she loves him, but that he hasn't been home nor has he been returning her calls, and she doesn't know of the divorce plans. God loves this woman, and so do I, though I've never thought of her as my mom, who died when I was a baby, and whose parents raised me, though they are now gone to be with Jesus as well.
My father is always the victim and is never at fault. I would love more than anything to see God strike him down in public if only for the pleasure to giggle at his downfall. God forgive me!
We need prayer, we need hope, Praise GOD that I have been blessed with a man with an open honest heart, but my future husband (we will marry next month) is not saved. He is a good, smart man, and he gives me hope that love is real, and that all men are not like my father.
I can only trust that the hardships my family endures here is in God's best reason, if only to show us that our Father in heaven is the only one who can comfort us, and that He HAS blessed us.
I am on the verge of breaking down. God is my only hope. I have faith that this will bring me and my husband closer to Him.
Pray for my husband's salvation, for my faith, for my stepmothers strength and comfort, and for all of us to have the love of Christ this holiday season. I despair the thought that this will cause resentment in the hearts of my siblings, my father is trying to use my stepmother as a "wedge" that has caused him to not be a part of our lives these past 13 years. Only God can open his eyes, and I'm not sure the man is human, he seems to have no remourse or regrets, his spirit seems numb to God. I pray God has mercy on his soul, for their congregation is also in great need of prayer and hope.
Thank you, anyone, and God bless you, and I pray that in your moments of despair, you know that He says to PRAISE HIM- for He alone knows what the next page in the book will reveal.
