need strength and prayer, please

[faithgoeson]

I have to have a private way to ask people to pray for this issue, so thought this thread would help. When my husband died, I fell into such a hole. I tried filling the hurt and void in my life with dating. Every person I dated just assumed I would have sexual relations with them. It wasn't long before I caved in. I had more boyfriends than I care to admit. It may not have been a lot to some, but it's way too many for me. Anyway, God has been helping break free from the bondage of sexual sin. I am so thankful for that. My problem is one guy. Early 2005, I began running into this man just about everywhere I went. It really seemed like maybe God was trying to get me to know this man. He finally got the courage to ask me out, and I accepted. It wasn't long before the old temptations were there. I hadn't been with anyone for over a year, and he was certainly willing. I explained to him that I was trying to commit my life to God and not give in to sexual temptations. He pressured me anyway. We didn't go through with it completely, but it was enough to make me still feel guilty today even. I really failed God by not doing what I had promised to do. I only slipped once since making this committment, but it was enough to really work on my conscience. Anyway, I thought God had taken this man from my life as a help to me. I hadn't run into him in about a year and a half now. I figured he moved. We live in a very remote area. I should have ran into him. My children suprisingly got a scholarship to a Christian Academy this year. It is a 30 mile drive from our home. After over a month in school, I start seeing this guy at our school! He's been there every day picking up his daughter. I guess he enrolled her there. It's a 30 mile drive for him, too. There are 10 others schools he could take her to, but he's at ours. I can't figure out if this is a temptation or not, but it sure is weird. I'm trying to avoid him at all cost. I really need prayer as I believe God wants to see how serious I really am. Then again, I wonder if I'm supposed to witness to this guy? There surely must be a reason to keep running into him. It is very confusing. I do, however, need much prayer in staying strong and not giving in to temptation that is right in front of my face. God bless you all.

 

[tapero]

Hi faithgoeson, I don't think God would bring someone in your life to witness to when temptation is there also. He never tempts us. I would run far and fast away from this fellow since you know you could have problems with him. God bless you, and I'll be praying for you.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

You need to get your stuff worked out first. Until then I think the guy is a disaster waiting to happen. Keep staying away.

 

[BelindaP]

I agree with the others. You need to stay away from him for right now. Is it possible that he might be stalking you? Running into him all the time does seem to be more than coincidence.

 

[faithgoeson]

Thank you for the responses. I know that the devil never wants me to prosper in any way. It's amazing the ways he works to bring us back down. I hadn't seen this guy in over a year, and then he's at my kids' school. I think he is nothing but bad news. Thank you for helping me to confirm that.

 

[UnitynLove]

Everything happens for a reason.