Need prayer and maybe advice.

[Indebted2Him]

I am dating the woman of my dreams. We where friends for three years before we started dating about three months ago. She is a beautiful strong christian woman and I am daily striving to be the leader she deserves.

We are both 22 and virgins but I have messed around (Made out) with girls in the past and she has kept herself pure even so far as she hasn't kissed someone.

About a month ago she asked me how many women I have kissed (she already knew that I had at least kissed one) but for some reason my brain kicked into self preservation mode because I was so afraid of screwing up this relationship so I told her just the one. I knew immediately what I did was wrong and I also know that she would not have broken up with me for my past wrong doings.

My conscience is on fire now and keeps getting worse everyday and I am afraid that telling her the truth will break the trust she has put in me and it will be the end of us. A lie like that may not seem like a huge deal but to put this into context she has always had a hard time trusting men because of her dad abandoning their family.

For some reason I have been putting this off with idea that I can find a better time to tell her but I am going to tell her today because I don't want a relationship or possible future marriage based on even one lie and I guess as I type this I don't know what kind of advice I am looking for so mainly just looking for prayer. I know that she will forgive me I just don't that she will be willing to commit to our relationship anymore.

The Lord detests lying lips, but he delights in those who tell the truth. Proverbs 12:22

Thanks for your time..

 

[Istaly]

Tell her the truth if she is the strong Christian woman you claim she is she will understand and forgive

It may not be quick but it will happen

Tell her how you feel. The truth will set you free.

 

[Indebted2Him]

Tell her the truth if she is the strong Christian woman you claim she is she will understand and forgive

It may not be quick but it will happen

Tell her how you feel. The truth will set you free.

Thanks, I had no doubt that she would forgive me. She's forgiven me for worse when we where only friends. I just wasn't sure what kind of affect it would have on our relationship as a couple and her trust of me.

I want to thank anyone here that prayed for me. It went very well. She was relieved that it bothered me so much even on such a small issue that I couldn't just forget about it.

While she said lying is a very big deal to her and if it became a common thing then she would be concerned but she said she trusts me enough to make the right decisions.

I think I got so caught up in the fear of losing the relationship that it was a much bigger deal in my head to tell her than it should have been. This relationship is in God's hands and if it wasn't meant to be after telling her so be it.

Thanks again for your time...