Need advice - non denom pastor convert to Catholic

[cmleung]

This is a repost from the Introduction board, a few have suggested to me to post here Need advice - non denom pastor convert to Catholic

This shouldn't be the way to say Hello and introduce myself. But I have lost sleep agonizing over this for days if not weeks. Let me try to make this as short as I can. I grew up Catholic, my parents are Catholic. I went to Catholic school before university. My parents, however, weren't practicing Catholic, my father would take us to Sunday mass sometimes when I was little. And my mother insisted not to have the children baptized back then. The Catholic school I grew up in have a full Church attached and offer mass services and I went, for mass for prayers and devotion. I actually was treated just as a Catholic despite never baptized. My church attendance stopped totally once I was in university.
Fast forward a few years, I went to a Baptist church, they also refused to baptize me because I was living with my then boyfriend (now my husband) before marriage. Anyhow, I went to a small seminary. Fast forward again, I was ordinated as a pastor in a non-denominational Church in Canada (despite the fact that I am a woman). The Church founder was an ex-United Church pastor. This Church is very liberal, we can pretty much do whatever we want, and we receive very little training. Bible studies, weddings, funerals, and visitations to hospital those type of things. I have yet to lead a full Church service. And I remain not baptized.
Fast forward yet again to last year. I have an experience similar to a near-death experience. Not going into details, the experience led me to 'truly' repent my sin, affirmed Jesus is the Lord (not just believe or just declare, but 100% without any doubt, because He was with me! I saw Him and understand his authority I think most are unable to fathom.). I experienced what it actually feels like to be 'filled with the Holy Spirit'. All the politics and debates among Christians didn't matter.
Anyway. I started looking to get baptized, and I found myself going back to a local Catholic Church. The main reason is that the Roman Catholic Church open all days and allow anyone to just go in and pray and have daily mass. But this time, I do not receive communion.
I pray and pray, but still, I have no answer to this. I can easily get a colleague to baptize me into our own non-denom Church! I feel a strong need to evangelize and start my own ministry, but I also feel the need to be 'disciple and structured' and belong to a community. (It is quite lonely to be a pastor actually). The daily mass and prayers in the Catholic Church does it for me.
The fact is, I enjoy my current ministry work and I would want to continue doing so as a minister. On the other hand, it is not about me, it is all about Him!
Any thoughts and advice will be greatly appreciated!!
God bless!

 

[Lost4words]

Do you want to get baptised in a Catholic church?

No women pastors in the Catholic Church. Eucharistic Ministers though.

Maybe God is leading you back to the Catholic church?

 

[SkyWriting]

This is a repost from the Introduction board, a few have suggested to me to post here Need advice - non denom pastor convert to Catholic

This shouldn't be the way to say Hello and introduce myself. But I have lost sleep agonizing over this for days if not weeks. Let me try to make this as short as I can. I grew up Catholic, my parents are Catholic. I went to Catholic school before university. My parents, however, weren't practicing Catholic, my father would take us to Sunday mass sometimes when I was little. And my mother insisted not to have the children baptized back then. The Catholic school I grew up in have a full Church attached and offer mass services and I went, for mass for prayers and devotion. I actually was treated just as a Catholic despite never baptized. My church attendance stopped totally once I was in university.
Fast forward a few years, I went to a Baptist church, they also refused to baptize me because I was living with my then boyfriend (now my husband) before marriage. Anyhow, I went to a small seminary. Fast forward again, I was ordinated as a pastor in a non-denominational Church in Canada (despite the fact that I am a woman). The Church founder was an ex-United Church pastor. This Church is very liberal, we can pretty much do whatever we want, and we receive very little training. Bible studies, weddings, funerals, and visitations to hospital those type of things. I have yet to lead a full Church service. And I remain not baptized.
Fast forward yet again to last year. I have an experience similar to a near-death experience. Not going into details, the experience led me to 'truly' repent my sin, affirmed Jesus is the Lord (not just believe or just declare, but 100% without any doubt, because He was with me! I saw Him and understand his authority I think most are unable to fathom.). I experienced what it actually feels like to be 'filled with the Holy Spirit'. All the politics and debates among Christians didn't matter.
Anyway. I started looking to get baptized, and I found myself going back to a local Catholic Church. The main reason is that the Roman Catholic Church open all days and allow anyone to just go in and pray and have daily mass. But this time, I do not receive communion.
I pray and pray, but still, I have no answer to this. I can easily get a colleague to baptize me into our own non-denom Church! I feel a strong need to evangelize and start my own ministry, but I also feel the need to be 'disciple and structured' and belong to a community. (It is quite lonely to be a pastor actually). The daily mass and prayers in the Catholic Church does it for me.
The fact is, I enjoy my current ministry work and I would want to continue doing so as a minister. On the other hand, it is not about me, it is all about Him!
Any thoughts and advice will be greatly appreciated!!
God bless!

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[cmleung]

Do you want to get baptised in a Catholic church?

No women pastors in the Catholic Church. Eucharistic Ministers though.

Maybe God is leading you back to the Catholic church?

Too bad I cannot change the title. It seems I get more response from the rejoicing Catholic as if I have made the conversion. You asked "Do you want to get baptized into the Catholic church", Yes and No. I know need to get baptized, I do not want to take this process lightly. However, I feel I am being called to evangelize, it is important to bring people to Christ who has lost their ways, deceived and not already know and believe the importance of it. I want to continue to serve, not to those already saved, but those who aren't. At the same time, I saw that the non denom doesn't understand the importance of recognizing the Lordship of Jesus Christ, which I didn't know the importance of rituals in the Lord's House until I had my experience. And the non denom is being infiltrated with new age and prosperity gospels. That is which led me back to sitting in the Catholic pew and actually saw devotees kneel in front of the statute of the Lord when they go in, and when they leave. The Catholic faith is for my devotion and I believe it will strengthen my faith in the Lord, BUT if I cannot do the outreach and evangelize, and serve in the capacity I can and called to serve because of they take their tradition and dogmas over Jesus Christ, it is a big problem for me. Title is not important for me, call me pastor, deacon , layman, whatever. as long as it doesn't hinder my outreach and share my experience.